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Saturday, September 30, 2006 4:18 AM

okies im back from this BIRTHDAY GIRL CELEBRATIONS and she had went home b4 us !!!! and she left me alone der!! this was like... =[ anyway HAPPY BDAY ANGELINE ! =D

im feeling sucks but im still damn farking sober. =D
anywayz drank quite a lort , corz of pher's company and sum other cust .

okies the reason why i asked u to cum over here its bcorz this is all for YOU: [huiwen]
i dun mind saying all these things out. be it fwen or wadever , im tired of acting . and i know telling u face to face is no use. corz u are defending urself on u had got no wrong at all . Well . I WONT WISHED TO CORRECT UR WAY OF LIVING , since u insist eh ? and even though i knoe blog does not have it freedom of speech , but i STILL need to say this out .

im tired of acting in front of you. seriously , i dun knoe when are you REAL and when are you FAKE. when are you acting , and when do u really care . DO I MEAN NTH TO YOU , ever since the 1st day we knew each other , or ever since u fell fer her ? and things started to change ? okies, its all history you might say .. BUT WADEVER , i dun care. i knoe u will read this and this is ESPECIALLY fer you . i wan you to know this is how i feel. so wad if im just nth but sumone who you wished to back stabb and say wadever you want behind my back .

i wont wished to critise anything abt ur personal stuffs . LIKE ? singing ? the way you often gif me farking stupid look , whenever i pick up mic ? HEY HELLO . its you who asked me to sing ! pls. im not beggin u fer mic to sing wit cust . neither im interested to hear whenever you sing . IM GETTING THIS FARKING LANGUAGES over here . im sorry i can say . BUT THIS IS WAD I WANT TO TELL YOU. be it u want to continue back stabe and change wadever i said ? BE IT . this is ur freedom of speech .

BUT , im not using ur money all the times , dun sound as if im interested in ur money . AND YOU ARE NOT THAT pathetic like wad u said . dun always sound like u dun hab looks and always want pity from others. wad or who are u trying to be like ? whoever ? i wont want to care i really wished to tell u in personal . SERIOUSLY i got no courage. corz in real life , i cant trust who u are. wad u really wants in life. im always wondering , are u still the one we used to know during k-box or you are alr the one we knew when wrking k-box ?

this is all abt dissapointment . im not being sarcastic and wadever over here. can u understand how much i treasure this kind of "fwenship" u really just misused all and all the care and concernd im WASTING over you . i trust u once and once but all these are rubbish . eventually i came to know , im just a fool or clown to you . am i that nice for u to play wit ?

WELL ,you might find that you did not do anything , and happy wit wad u haf now. BUT GET THIS CLEAR . i used to really treat you as fwen . and i believed wad u had done and did , YOU KNOW . no nid much explainations .
times in k-box , fun , outgoing , exciting , everyday playing ard , hanging out tgt wit J.A.W ? ALL THESE HAD BECUM RUBBISH TO ME NOW. i used to tell myself tt u are not tt kind , until things happened agn and agn . OKIES. wad happened ? back stabbing of me , and changing of words had been repeating happened. I HAD ENUFF . i had wanted to give u slaps. but i cant bear to . i tot u are the fwen i used to know in k-box. and we 3 had a unforgettable moments.
AND NOW , SEEING U I HAD ALWAYS BEEN FAKE i can tel u . iM JUST ACTTING. just like wad u doing .

why live in pple world and that you are always following wad people wants you to do so. sum pple are also acting . ACTING tt they enjoyed wad u are doing . stop all ur fakeness ? be back urself can ? is this the huiwen i used to know initially ? can you get what you want ? and can you know wad u wish to achieve ? is apple polish-ing really an impt task fer you everyday ?

CUM ON, Im sounding damn farking bad here. and i wont know wad wrds might cum out from ur mouth agn . but i just wants to tell you . after this blog , i will not be acting towards you. i will just treat how i hate you . thisss much .

we live in wdls , gg dwn or cuming back is always tgt . but im practically wearing masks everyday when im wrking wit you .
im not those kind where i can tolerate. i really want to be back fren lke you. only if you are real . but i know this will probably took farking long time. this is SERIOUSLY true .

why cant you stay like who you are , and dun mind pple's tots ? is getting sumwhere high is wad u wished fer ? this is not chim at all .

i knoe and tot b4 the consequences of blogging stuffs i wanted to said to you HERE. im well prepared . and seriously if you find tt im nth worth to you , just stop befriending me . i dun wished to be ur tool nor clown . thanks .
this is not all abt sarcastiums but all true .

Joanne-
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