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Saturday, May 01, 2010 12:58 PM

Today is the first day of may.

Haa. i enjoyed myself yesterday night . Well although i REALISED i have a husband who dont care much about his wife and can left her waiting at another place while he can sleep at home. Im seriously angry about this. It makes me feel im so not important. Lucky i have my buddy with me. if not, i cannot imagine i'll be waiting alone for hours but to no ava? Tts stupid. i HATE HIME FOR BEING LIKE THIS. but im somehow used to it.

I think sooner or later I'll might dont even give a damn about this. Which i hate this. Cause i scare sooner or later i will dont give a damn about him or rather this relationship. Yes i will . and i do.

Thats why couples always end up relationship turn sour because of not being honest to each other or perhaps too used to each other. As for me , i know as long as the moment you made me feel i should not give a damn about you , THAT IT. yes even we have children. i mean kids might be on top piority but not YOU. ;)

Thats why at times im always reminding him please love me more and dont treat me as rubbish . I cannot imagine when he promise to fetch me and ended up sleeping , the moment he wake up . will he remember that he had left his wife somewhere out der waiting ?

THIS IS JUST A SOONER OR LATER. SOMETIMES I FEEL EMPTY BEING WITH HIM. i enjoy my life yesterday with zhengfu. yes my 8-9 yrs buddy. And i love my batch of sisters. i mean no matter wad , they will be in the first place of mine. Cause i love them all seriously. they are always der holding me when i was about to fall and not your partner.

Im angry, yes very angry and indeed dissapointment. But im also happy , cause i know if he sees me being happy and drunk , they will be quarrels. But i just cannot imagine HE WOULD HAVE LEFT HIS WIFE OUT DER WAITING WITHOUT REMEMBERING! WADS PROMISE? HAHA.
ai yar. tts a joke la. i mean I'll just .... forget it?

I remember my friends , and my buddys , that i have. smiling . pub life is still fun. so wad am i a mother? ;) i love to mixed with people... but being drunk is still horrible. LOL. im having a gathering soon on my lovely sis bday soon!

MAY is a hectic month. i think I'll drop all suprises for him. and bother more on my flea market with darling les rather then thinking of how to celebrate his bday and the 1 yr wedding anni.
At times he really forces me to do things thats not on my mind.

Joanne-
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