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Thursday, March 11, 2010 12:04 AM

Im so pissed. so farked up. so irritated.

NAGGINGS , IRRITATINGS , CRYINGS , AND STUFFS.
Sometimes some people just dont know how to automatic and thought the whole world lives the way they do. Well im not trying to be difficult to live with. but just stop being so irritating in my life la. Sometimes , they think the way they do is right , doesnt mean everyone has to live the way they live in right ? come'on tts making me feel ... I'll shut up.

This isnt wad i want, isnt the life im craving for.

As for the two lill ones . they are getting slightly better. But the girl just cant to slp at night. and she;s an alarm to daddy! =D she wakes daddy up every 730 AM. went to KK to have her check up again. She cries non stop at night , and in the morning, making me doing crazy. Yar. i know this isnt wad she wants to. she dont wish to have a nose like tt too. Tts why im trying to make myself calm each time she cries. no matter how tired i am. But eventually i breakdown this morning. Her crying and milking in the midnight , makes me , " dont know wad to do" and each time she crys, some pple will keep asking . " wad happened to her. HOW THE FARK I KNOW WAD HAPPENED? IF I KNOW I WILL JUST TACKLE THE PROBLEM RIGHT?

Just want to ask the obvious.
Rubbishs.

Well, Once again , i'll just shut up my mouth. cause i had no capability to keep the two up for the moment.

And darling took childcare leave today just because i breakdown today and tell him i do not want to be home alone. YAR. it sucks.
Thank you to him , that today my life is so much better despite the lill darling crying non-stop.
i must really say .thank you darling. i love you.
And thanks to wati , the maid , she take care her all day long. I must admit its my fault in the first place, that i throw her to the maid too. tt she;s used to the way the maid carry to sleep. and at nigth if she cant slp , i had no ways to carry her using the sarong that wati's using.

Who to blame? ME, myself.
If only i can handle both of them , YES. MY way of living. well , yar, im selfish. =D
Cause since born , i do not have much sayings. no rights.
So ... where's my rights?

and tt farking cb saying im complaining. FARK HIM NOW!
stop being so KPO CAN ?
SHUT UP! THIS IS NOT COMPLAINING!
THIS IS JUST TO SAY OUT WAD I WANT TO FEEL CAN A NOT U CB!
AND I WILL BOLD THIS LA!!
HAHAHAHA!

Joanne-
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