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IT'S ALL ME._ 2010

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Monday, March 29, 2010
1:40 PM

So naive to think i have a fairy tale ending just like the prince and princess ending.

And as time pass by , i realised every thing has a turning point, everything has a climax. Just like when we watched movie , or television, theres always a turning point to touched or to make the show interesting .

And yes. This is my turning point.

It starts with the girl married happily to the man she loves. because of the babies they've got. Show goes smoothly and things happened naturally. And so here's the climax where life turns and changed. freedom trapped and captured. Quarrels and Fights occur when theres arguments. Well , you may find it so normal as it happens i every climax of a show. those , quarrels fights quarrel fights.

And it makes the girl tired. fight , quarrels , no understanding from the rest , demanding from others, lost of freedom , problems with staying, financial, insuffient slp , babies and stuffs. Who can she complained to ? who can she blame? : ) no one.

This is life. Its just like the show you often watch. Ups and Downs.
No one to blame when theres no one der for you. No one to blame when own freedom is trapped, no one to blame when they cannot understand you, no one to blame when you have financial tight.
All comes form a reason. And yes. There's a reason. TO EVERYTHING.

But its different from show. It has no ending . But she hopes and wish for a fairy tale one. The one the prince loves the princess and they live happily ever after. The one she sees others with their own lill family of 4 , smiling and staying together. though tough , but she yearns for. : )

what kind of life .you yearn for , you got to work for it. and so,
This is life. :)
Joanne-
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Wednesday, March 17, 2010
10:40 PM

AlrightS!
Im so filled with regrets now ...

I;ve missed the 2nd prize again! as well as starter.
If i had known . i should buy them!! ahhhhh!
Baby jiajun shit on me today.
And well , they say shit is gold. If i had known and rem, i should have buy my own bday!!
And there goes my 1k. ahhh! omg! HAIIS.
no money alr. and baby jiajun wanna give me some income , and yet i give it a miss! so stupid!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! stupid!

how stupid can i be.

Anyway baby jiajun and baby jiaying has their own grown up blogg.
Its cretaed for them to see how they grow up.
And yes , its
http://lill-precious.blogspot.com
Click der to see their updates pictures :)


and lastly to all married guys out der!
As a married woman and mother of two , i dont think married life should just stayed home and look after the children.
As a mother , they still have their own freedom and rights for themselves.
I dont think why they cant go out and relax or meet the opp sex.
Its not as if they are not trustable.
HELLO. we are alr married and babies are born , wads with the " no trust" so stupid.
AND yar , how many guys out der will like a woman with 2 babies or children and married.
Not many. but yar , der is still.
And i dont see why married woman cannot go pub to relax?
I think the most important is honesty. I think as long as one is honest enough to their partner , i dont see wads the problem.
And wouldnt it be WROST IF ONE LIEED JUST TO GO OUT WITH OPP SEX OR JUST OUT TO RELAX?

Tts the problem i have always wonder ?
To lie or Not to Lie.
So how many of you out der love to be lied ?

this is farkin irony isnt?
Joanne-
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Monday, March 15, 2010
12:54 AM

YOU KNOW WAD?! I JUST CANT BELIEVE.
TT IDIOT OF MINE , PLAYED THE RING THING AND STUFF.
and ... 2 more lill boys to go.

Think back of it. its quite scary. I mean. been through once, there going to be 2 more times?
Im so scare. I mean... well , no one understand. haa!

Anyway brought the two lill ones to united square.
First time really just go shopping and walk walk .
Well , there's sure one of them to be the noisy one. and today is the boy. haa.
Think his teeth is making him uncomfortable. that his saliva drips and wet his wholeeee tee shirt. hes not comfortable and kept crying. the lill girl smile smile and smile ... =)
So sweet of them . yupz. they are my precious.

And they are growing ...
I just see them grow each day passes .
the girl's cry each night and my night just filled with her cries.
and so ... there goes my sleep. haahaa!
help me. boy's down with flu. his nose kept running. help me ctach it back ? and make him better ?

Just cant wait for them to grow ... =D
loves.

oh ya! i wish the best for my buddies and friends out der!
Joanne-
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Thursday, March 11, 2010
12:04 AM

Im so pissed. so farked up. so irritated.

NAGGINGS , IRRITATINGS , CRYINGS , AND STUFFS.
Sometimes some people just dont know how to automatic and thought the whole world lives the way they do. Well im not trying to be difficult to live with. but just stop being so irritating in my life la. Sometimes , they think the way they do is right , doesnt mean everyone has to live the way they live in right ? come'on tts making me feel ... I'll shut up.

This isnt wad i want, isnt the life im craving for.

As for the two lill ones . they are getting slightly better. But the girl just cant to slp at night. and she;s an alarm to daddy! =D she wakes daddy up every 730 AM. went to KK to have her check up again. She cries non stop at night , and in the morning, making me doing crazy. Yar. i know this isnt wad she wants to. she dont wish to have a nose like tt too. Tts why im trying to make myself calm each time she cries. no matter how tired i am. But eventually i breakdown this morning. Her crying and milking in the midnight , makes me , " dont know wad to do" and each time she crys, some pple will keep asking . " wad happened to her. HOW THE FARK I KNOW WAD HAPPENED? IF I KNOW I WILL JUST TACKLE THE PROBLEM RIGHT?

Just want to ask the obvious.
Rubbishs.

Well, Once again , i'll just shut up my mouth. cause i had no capability to keep the two up for the moment.

And darling took childcare leave today just because i breakdown today and tell him i do not want to be home alone. YAR. it sucks.
Thank you to him , that today my life is so much better despite the lill darling crying non-stop.
i must really say .thank you darling. i love you.
And thanks to wati , the maid , she take care her all day long. I must admit its my fault in the first place, that i throw her to the maid too. tt she;s used to the way the maid carry to sleep. and at nigth if she cant slp , i had no ways to carry her using the sarong that wati's using.

Who to blame? ME, myself.
If only i can handle both of them , YES. MY way of living. well , yar, im selfish. =D
Cause since born , i do not have much sayings. no rights.
So ... where's my rights?

and tt farking cb saying im complaining. FARK HIM NOW!
stop being so KPO CAN ?
SHUT UP! THIS IS NOT COMPLAINING!
THIS IS JUST TO SAY OUT WAD I WANT TO FEEL CAN A NOT U CB!
AND I WILL BOLD THIS LA!!
HAHAHAHA!
Joanne-
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Tuesday, March 09, 2010
4:50 PM

i had my night out ytd with my sisters.
Although it is a vvery short while , but still , enjoyed! =D

Baby ying and baby jun are both SICK. yar. medical fees up to 100++
but still no choices , their sickness are contagious to both of them.
and well , thats twins. if you dont tk properly.

no pple at home to look after , so afterall i had to rush back home to take over darling's place.
And a very big thank you to darling . if not enough , plus a hug to him.
Well , i must thank him for looking after the two lill ones.
if not i dont think i can chill out with my sisters. =D
love you darling!
Joanne-
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Thursday, March 04, 2010
11:46 PM

talking to jane now , about mothers experiences.
so funny. and i think natural birth is SCARY. i mean even till now. eeek . i think i dont want to go tru that . lols . i had better guai guai scheldue my birth and have them out. lol. i cannot stand the process of water bag burst , and contractions and stuffs. that's scary! haa.

wonder hows sh's now. her childish hubby? they way how much she loves him ? how she is handling eden and stuffs? hopes things are going smoothly for her .

baby jia ying's sick. her phlgem is making her difficulty in breathing . her cough and her flu. poor jiay ing. i dont know how to help her.bought her to doc , to got her phlgem sucked out. LOUSY daddy said dont suck finsih cause she's crying out loud. BUT THE PROB is not finish sucking , now she's suffering... i know the night is going to be tough on her as well as ME. haha she wont be able to slp and i know i cant too . but its okay la. as long as she can sleep a while , i dont mind carrying her to slp. poor thing la..

Daddy got childcare sick leave , but to TEND SHOP AND not acc-ing us =(
i dont like this, his parents always take him for granted. i promises once i got money , i will moved out and have our own family instead of like keep summon for my darling. i mean , he's married not tt mummy boy anymore. need not stays by ur side forever. right? i will still allow him to be back certain days to help in his family , after all its his father and mother. but not everyday or even times when he take MC, and they take him for granted ? wads this? then hire labour la. not possible to ask him help out each time he take mc or leave ma. then wad about us ? me , jia ying and jia jun ? i mean , if she's gonna be like tt , i believe she is selfish. I ADMIT I AM! but because they had taken my hubby for granted. TOO MUCH.

LEE YONG SHEN IS A MARRIED MAN OKAY . NOT MUMMY BOY!!!! =(
he has his own family la! fark. I KNOW AND ADMIT IM NT A GOOD DIL. I KNOW IM FAKING.
SO ? im faking , so i can try and learn to be good. for the sake of him. who loves to stays with in laws after all.
Joanne-
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