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Saturday, January 02, 2010 9:38 PM

am back home. - woodlands.
yes. fri sat and sun.
Seriously if i have enough help , i do not wish to go back.
yesterday darling asked me , " i really dont know who make you so fed up, and who step on my tail " i kept quiet. seriously no one. I just dun like the way THEY are loh. the way they talk, they way they live , their lifestyle , the way they had their lunch dinner or even breakfast , the way they teach ppple to do things , they way wadever it is , i just dont like. i dont know why darling is part of them yet i can accept but not his family.
seriously am i that fussy? i mean , i just want all to be happy. they are so fake that i dont like. well , wad can i say , its their lifestyle for the past 26 years or more ...

I certainly will miss mummy and they way we used to live in , without naggings , without restrictions , without stress . and well , its my family.

was struggling whether to keep the current maid , she's so ... i hate it . perhaps im just so not used to have a maid around , instead of ordering her around , i do more things as usual . we treat her like a guest! haha. but im also glad , mummy did not hire maid in the past . if not i believe i would ended up like everyone in his family. used to the habit of after drinking eating , theres pple to clean and wash for them , or even just making a cup of coffee they will ask for help. well , its just their habit , i shall and can say nothing.

oh yar, my troubles and problems seems the negative side from jess. a newly wed couple. well , so glad she is staying happily with her in laws. but still hope they would get their own house in case of problem like THESE.and here i want to wish her to stay happily ever with her hubby . and faster have a baby , then my babies will have more friends , including sh's one .
As for the rest i hope they are staying happy too with their own partners.

Though they are always busy , hoppe they are also getting finel

here i am lying on my bed typing this entry. had been stiicking to my two darlings since morning. taking turn to drink milk , taking turn to bathe , taking turn to cry , taking turn to make them slp . well , enough to last the whole day but doing all these, and truely , 1 day passed just like tt.
darling will be back tmr. - frm duty.

Just in case he kpo, and saw this post , i want to tell him once again ,
" sorry darling. im not trying to make life difficult for you . i understand . but u know i really dislike . and since we made a promise that we are to confide in each other no matter wad , that why i find no reasons to hide wad im thinking from you. As nfor you , if you dont like or anything please do let me know . i will tRY to be more understanding okay ? im really sorry. i know you had always been on my side, trying all ways to make me happy and stress-less. here i really wanna say thank you. despite all the attitudes towards you , but i want to let you know i love you -) pls darling , dont relyon ur mum so much , i promise i will earn enough money to cover back all expenses so you wont be so xingku. okay ? =) i loveyou. <3

Joanne-
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