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Saturday, December 12, 2009 10:21 AM

im back in wdls.

I know im not doing the right thing.
But for all i know , Im so much happier this way. Really.
But as for him , he's in between. I dont know wad should i do.
I want him to be happy too. But we do not have any plans.
I just know that i dun like his parents planning. neither any one's idea in the house. Other than him. Cause i know he is doing for my sake. So i really must thank him.

I know he do not like coming back. I know he do not know wad to explain to his parents.
I knoe his parents want to see the babies.
But wad is this want to see yet complaining tired of taking care ?
I know they have own biz. I know they are tired. so i take care of myself loh.
Yet they tell me dont tk when you cannot make it and seems like they are trying to tell me , " not to bu zi liang li" I know they do not have this meaning , but the conflict and mess at his place are ... farked up. i cannot take it. i just dont like. i just hope i can finish my confinement happily without crying..

Tears just cant stop rolling since the first day i start my confinement. =(
But lucky darling stand by me. Im really appreciate it.
But im not trying to make you in a difficult position. Just that i really hope you can understand , unless you want me go under depression , if not i really hope to finish my confinement happily with you smiling too...

I know your parents will not be happy. But since they can be selfish , cant i just let babies stay with me for just 1 mth ? since , they find that babies crying will wake them up from their slp. I rather wish that my husband has got no family biz. and so life would be easier? =)

And way i love you darling. dont forget this. No matter how busy or how messy the conflict is , i just hope you'll rem. i love you so much.
Thank you for trying to make my days better . I hope staying with me , and babies will make you happy instead of the travelling dist to your workplace.
I really hope you could talk t hings out with me when you feel troubled too . i wouldnt want you to stress too. and i wouldnt want to leave you =)

thank you darling.

Joanne-
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