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Friday, December 25, 2009
5:38 PM

CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY
YES. THIS SUCKS!
Joanne-
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Monday, December 21, 2009
2:32 PM

one month passing soon.

And yes my two darlings turning 1 mth old~ =)
My darling boy is down with rashes all over his face , due to some in experienced nanny where she uses shampoo mixing with water and bathe for him. Hope he can recover from all thes rashes before his full month . I believe he also wants to be handsome on his first month eh =D
though not many people free to come for their full month , but its alrights.
As long as they are healthy and happy through out their growth. im happy. i believe their daddy too~

Hope they stay healthy and happy ~

Im bck to TB. and this is a noisy place. i really hates this . On and Off i will have to torlerate with their noise and cryings. Back in wdls , house might be quiet , and no much help , but im really still happy. i like my hubby tk babies tgt with me. i feel the happiness. =D i mean , i know though he's tired and he's a prince back at home, but at least at my place , he can learn to take care babies , instead of a wood dun know anything. His place pple too pampered him. so he wont learn anything back at his place. I just love the feeling of a family work and help out tgt. i mean me my hubby and babies. not here! =)

and its my off day on wed. But im worries as i had to pass the babies to an in eperienced nanny to handle , im worry. but theres no other alternatives. after this wed , im going to take care my darlings myself. Properly! People who likes to di siao siao and likes to use their old methods or ways to treat my babies. fark off!
Joanne-
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Saturday, December 12, 2009
10:21 AM

im back in wdls.

I know im not doing the right thing.
But for all i know , Im so much happier this way. Really.
But as for him , he's in between. I dont know wad should i do.
I want him to be happy too. But we do not have any plans.
I just know that i dun like his parents planning. neither any one's idea in the house. Other than him. Cause i know he is doing for my sake. So i really must thank him.

I know he do not like coming back. I know he do not know wad to explain to his parents.
I knoe his parents want to see the babies.
But wad is this want to see yet complaining tired of taking care ?
I know they have own biz. I know they are tired. so i take care of myself loh.
Yet they tell me dont tk when you cannot make it and seems like they are trying to tell me , " not to bu zi liang li" I know they do not have this meaning , but the conflict and mess at his place are ... farked up. i cannot take it. i just dont like. i just hope i can finish my confinement happily without crying..

Tears just cant stop rolling since the first day i start my confinement. =(
But lucky darling stand by me. Im really appreciate it.
But im not trying to make you in a difficult position. Just that i really hope you can understand , unless you want me go under depression , if not i really hope to finish my confinement happily with you smiling too...

I know your parents will not be happy. But since they can be selfish , cant i just let babies stay with me for just 1 mth ? since , they find that babies crying will wake them up from their slp. I rather wish that my husband has got no family biz. and so life would be easier? =)

And way i love you darling. dont forget this. No matter how busy or how messy the conflict is , i just hope you'll rem. i love you so much.
Thank you for trying to make my days better . I hope staying with me , and babies will make you happy instead of the travelling dist to your workplace.
I really hope you could talk t hings out with me when you feel troubled too . i wouldnt want you to stress too. and i wouldnt want to leave you =)

thank you darling.
Joanne-
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Thursday, December 10, 2009
1:14 PM

Im not trying to give my hubbby all these nonsenses , neither am i going to create so many troubles.
But all these are making me going crazy , from heart pain , heart break to now , PISSED OFF.
My tears are alr dried up. Im sick of crying seriously.
Im more of anger than sad.

You know? Im so stressed up! I've been thinking of ways to make myself relax.
SMILE? in this family , smiling is just FAKE-ing!
I seem to have passed my both babies to other people.
It somehow seems that they just want me to give birth to these two kids.
And i dont need to take care. I seems useless too.

SERIOUSLY. I WANT TO SMOKE , I WANT TO DRINK OUT OF ALL THESE NONSENSES.
if you all want to take care babies so much , just go ahead la. NB , CB , KNN , CCB , PCB! FARK ! URGHH!! I just want to resume my world of social. SINCE YOU ALL DONT WANT TO GIVE ME A CHANCE TO TAKE CARE BABIES, SO YOU ALL THINKING IM BABy AS WELL ? IM IDIOT ?
I'VE hired a nanny , so call "experienced" nanny , to MAKE MY LIFE DIFFICULT AND SUFFERING. THANK YOU SO MUCH. TRYING TO SPOILT MY CHILDREN AND SHE JUST WANT MY BABIES TO DEPEND ON HER. CCBLA!!!! FARK.

IM JUST SO PISSED LA. FARK FARK FARK.

Only when hubby's back i have the feeling that im mother of 2 kids , otherwise , i feel extra in this family. i feel so out , i feel not needed , im ALONE.

I WANT TO GO BACK TO MY HOUSE, MY HOME.
OUT OF ALL THIS NONSENSES! WAH KAOS. THIS CONFINEMENT TO ME IS LIKE 10 YRS INSTEAD OF 1 MTH. IS LIKE HELL TO ME LA. FARKED UP. CCB LA!! NBCBPCB!

Ps. sry darling, im not trying to make your days difficult. im not trying to flood u with complains. please understand me that im staying in ur house - so ALONE , SO LONELY. you know? im going crazy. you know? i just cant learn to be fake. but im trying to be sarcastic. yes! im learning.
Joanne-
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Sunday, December 06, 2009
2:45 PM

6/12/09
Took my bathe with the herbal thingy. Despite that , used some normal water to clean my face. Cannot imagine using the herbal stuff to wash my face. haa.

Wow. the feeling was shiok!
And slimmed down a bit. Way to go!
Before babies born , i weighs about 73kg and then when baby out i was 65kg
Doc told me im slim, no fats inside. only babies. I look at him and laugh , saying , oh man ,my stomach like fats inside. Till today is the 12th day , and im 59kg! haha despite eating all the rice, you know? BIG BOWL RICE? i can be 59 still.

Anyway all snatching babies now.
MY CONFINEMENT SUCKS.
REST ? NO. ITS MAKING ME WORRYING SO MUCH.
MY 2 DARLINGS. Being treat in those OLD AND TRADITIONAL WAY. SICK AND TIRED OF COMPLAINING SERIOUSLY. Even my babies cry , I cannot carry. CL snatch to take care. And she wanted to BKL, Making her self miserable and tired , and then she complained. Trying to be funny. IM BABIES MUMMY! After confinement , no one is to SNATCH TO TAKE CARE.
I hate my babie fall on other pple hand. They use differnt way to tk of them , their OWN FUNNY WAYS. Where i see babies dun like, YES YES YES! I MEAN I CANNOT ACCEPT IT.

My big darling is the wrost , he had got to see to everything . tahan my complains and to work things out. Well, hes the one wanted this CL. But i know its tough for him still.
My tears going to be dried soon. Somehow it just roll down uncontrollably upon seeing how CL taking care of them , TOTALLY OPPOSITE FROM WAD THE HOSPITAL NURSES AND DOC TEACHES ME. It's heart pain. I dont know wad is right and wad is wrong. I know this confinement sucks sucks sucks. YES! SUCKS TO THE CORE! URGGHH!!!! CBNBKNNAKSJDBFBDHWDND!

I JUST HOPE TIME FLIES FAST NOW! PLEASE SPEED UP!!

JIAJUN AND JIAYING NOW IS 12 DAYS OLD. DARLINGS , YOU WILL BE 1 MTH OLD SOON! BE HEALTHY!!
Joanne-
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Friday, December 04, 2009
12:14 PM

MY MARRIGAE LIFE WITH THE TWO LILL DARLINGS + BAOBEI
since 31st may 2009
This is the life where I have never though of since young. I have never thought of having a husband and babies at the age of 21. Neither have i thought that life would be tough and yet i got to be strong.
I have been staying with in laws for almost one year. And life here isnt as good as I thought initially. I believe none would love to stay with in laws. Everyone , including my own mother , she advised me to moved out as soon as possible if me and darling are able to financially supported. Trust me , this is the promise im gonna make - to be independent and stronger , to earn as much as possible to lessen my darling's financial.
My dearest darling : I know that , all the loans and bills are making you going hay wire , and you need to partially support by your mum. You know what ? This is wad i dislike. I want to make sure you are out of mummy's financial help. I want you to rely on me instead of your mum. I want you stop being mummy's boy. I will make sure we will still be happy even though financial is tight. Trust me , I'll worked extra hard , not abandoning our two lill darlings. How i wished , the 5 yrs could passed quickly and we'll be able to stay on our own. I know all my complains had flooded you. And you are sick and tired of all my complains. But seriously , im not feeling good, not making you in between , but i find and think i should be more stright forward rather then hide my feelings to you . I think and hope you know how i feel.
MY DEAREST TWO DARLINGS : Im so sorry , mummy could not give you the best of all. But trust me and give mummy , daddy time to give you all a better environment rather then squeezing in a family of 12. Mummy promised that you will not be spoilt and have the best of all things. Your names changed but it was fine as darling girl , you smiled upon hearing your names being called. Although mummy did not take care well of you since you are born , but no matter how tough it is im going to survived through these to make sure you grow up well. =D I believe daddy too! <3>
Seriously 12 people staying under one roof , now including babies is 14 people staying under one roof is not easy . Firstly staying with in laws is a problem, and then come another problem where staying with in-laws relatives is wrost. more come to wrost is that they nagged wadever they wants. ON AND OFF without thinking whether they are right or wrong. They probe into other people biz as if its theirs own. I know sometimes they are for my own good sake. But over doing it will be known as - IRRITATING.
But still i love my darlings and baobei. Without you guys , my life would be boring too. But now i warned you LEE YONG SHENG , if you only care about babies , Im gonna slap you till your face sore!
... LIFE ISNT EASY WITH IN-LAWS.
26-11-2009

pregnancy
Woke up early in the morning 4.45am preparing heading towards Mt Avernia , That is the day babies gonna be born , the pressure in my stomach is coming out to see the world , to see their daddy and mummy . Reached Mt Avernia with no much feeling. was lost. Did not know how should I react to the later operation. All i could do and know was , im going to operation soon.
Inside Op theatre , There was many doctors and nurses surrounding me. All telling me to relax. It will going to be my first time lying down on the Op bed. The doctors and nurses are friendly. They were talking about what foods later , and their night the day before. The anesthesia will works on you. and 1 ... 2... 3... The next thing is that you'll go BLANK.
"Joanne joanne , no worries your babies are fine and healthy ..." Waking up saw the clock hanging on the wall , Its 8.24am. The operation took 1 hr. And the operation start ard 735am , which means it takes 15 min , and babies are out to see the world. And half hour for me to regain concious.
Yes. My darlings are born. =)


twins darling

just born-boy just born-girl

my loud boy and my slping beauty girl . They weighs around 2.6kg and 2.5kg

Let's have a closed up... Boy and Girl. Regconise? =)

darling-boygirl preciousboypreciousgirl


5-6 days later ...


jiajun my darling-girl my darling-boy jiajun


daddy and girl
Yes daddy with his precious darling.


my family

Lastly , this is going to be my beloved family. my baobei and darlings.
the one who accompany me to walk finish the rest of my life...


Joanne-
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