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Saturday, June 27, 2009 5:25 PM

im back home.
and yes. im back home.

Had nothing much to do except wait for mummy's bird nest.
talking abt waiting tt fellow finish hius duty? i dun think i will be waiting.
Since i think he care more abt sleeping, i think perhaps in future when he's working i will not bother him neither will i give him a text. in case im also those annoying wife.

Read some informations on pregnancy now.
which is i think 1 or 2 weeks later then 18weeks?
week 18

Maternal Changes:
Feeling dizzy, lightheaded or faint are normal during pregnancy. These symptoms aren't harmful unless they occur frequently or severely. "Postural hypotension" is low blood pressure due to a change in position and happens frequently in pregnancy because your cardiovascular system doesn't react as fast.

--- was rather scare that i got my low blood back. it was quite scary. and you know? one got to be more strong when im only alone. I dun want to be said that why am i of so many problems. and beingg compared. I HATE BEING COMPARED. FARKED.

Ideas for Dad:
Are you a "Mr. Fix-It" kind of guy? It's common for dads to feel very protective of moms. Often, Mom will need a big shoulder to cry on and get out all of those crazy pregnancy emotions. Dad can feel rather helpless listening to Mom carry on, and in his frustration, try to do what he can to "fix" whatever she's grumbling about. Dad, relax. Nine times out of ten, Mom just needs to vent and really doesn't expect you to act upon her complaints. As hard as it may be for you, just LISTEN! Give her your undivided attention. This is the best gift you can give to Mom.

--- there is this sentence , "Often, Mom will need a big shoulder to cry on and get out all of those crazy pregnancy emotions." I think he is so used to it and might even think im crazy.
If i am to go to a place where i can shout it out i would want to go to some where far to vent everything instead of staying in a SHELL and facing the same thing EVERYDAY AND EVERY MOMENTS. sometimes i really need someone to love me more than i do. Now i know and realised , a mummy is that great, rather then dad. she has got to face wadever difficulties all alone by HERSELF.

urgh. im sounding bad. but i know MY mummy still care and love me , including my brother. or should i say MY FAMILY. =) im blessed. And if i were to choose i would want to stay with them like his sister could stay with her own family even after marriage.

im thinking negative.
I know.
But this is wad im feeling. i just feel like going somewhere else or stay in some other places. to avoid those rules i dunt like.

I JUST HOPE THAT...

I will have you to be with
Everything will be easy
晒的阳光
淋的雨滴
都值得回忆
I have you to be with
才懂心不够近才怕距离

Joanne-
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