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Friday, February 08, 2008 5:02 AM

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happy new year to everyone!
it's a new year.

watched dou niu yao bu yao.
a ungiven up love.
i wanted to be like the one holding on.
our relation is like a basketballmatch .
since im alr halfway tru the match , stopping is the same as giving up.
others might need to put in lill of efforts. but i should have
put in millions and millions of efforts .

BUT somehow angel and devil ;

my persistance has come to an end.
rejections has been inserting into me.
again and again tellingmyself not to give up but after all it seems stupid. crying and missing is all i did and him ? silly and stupid .

wanted to wait till this valentine. did not spend a valentine tgt . tot of spending it wit him.
but it seems and sound stupid.
did sumthing which i've never dare to. well did sumthing wanted to hand to him.

perhaps all he need is his accompany from his friends and his work.
perhaps it's just all fufilling his life.
perhaps since the day we gave it an end , it really end.
perhaps he is leading a life which he is very satisfied that he did not even need me anymore
perhaps all happened , all memories in the past are justa history that are meant to be forgetten.
perhaps he did not even wants everything to be back in the first place.
perhaps love to him now bring second , third or even fourth place.
perhaps i am really not important anymore.

but all these perhaps doesnt seems to matter.
my persisting eventually seems to be irritating.
i miss. missed everything so so much. but it seems doesnt matter anymore once again.

things getting different since.
all i wanna say is darling, no matter wad happens , be it it's a mistake or not.
like i said. all people made mistakes but depends on whether he/she will be forgiven ,
if not he/she will always been marked as a sinner/mistaker.

well anyway i've alr been marked .
and i believe i will never able to talk you round and make u trust and believe me again.

MIGHT not see u for the next time. but lastly i wan you darling to take care lar.
anyway it's a new year. =]
thank you once again for all.
loves you .

since it's a new year!
blessed all with good fortune and a better life!
huat ah!

Joanne-
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