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Wednesday, December 19, 2007
5:53 AM

well back home after outing with krugers friends.
kelvin , simpor , siping , and my small darling always get faustrated and sad when drunk

well she is always der when im dwn , so i will be der when i can =]

went boat quay - VOUGE .
not fun la. anyway pple said tt i had common face. the waitress said she seen me a lot times when i do not even know her. haa .

i dun feel like drinkin anymore. im lacking exercise ahh .
lacking of whatever a normal girl is living.
i dun wanna wrk in pub anymore.
but wad else can i wrk as to support my own income and expenses ?
slaes 4 hrs , one hr 5 , one week 4-5 days, will it be enuff ?

well, i doubt so , so wad i can do is to stop drinking , or rather drink lesser and get back to wrk always. which i did it today. i had only like 3 glasses of alchohol frm 6pm to 1 am ? lol

anyway im missing you. so much . =]
Joanne-
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Sunday, December 16, 2007
6:47 AM

stupid stuffs.

as usual , think think think.


stupid girl!
Joanne-
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Friday, December 14, 2007
3:34 AM

my nailss... =[

phillipine movie - one more chance . nice. =]

serious . "for people who once in love and lost "


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g8q6FDPZ9i8

im scareee . i dun wanna wrk pub, anyone can feed me ? lol

i start to hate pple knowing me. wtf. i tot i supposed to be like this?
tml java. wake up jo. but anyway if it's still tt cb facilator. im not gg anyway
haa...


tml wrk. hais sians.
but..
no work no money .


"she loved me at the wrost ; and you had me at the best "
Joanne-
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Thursday, December 13, 2007
11:04 AM

i think i had enuff.

i wanna coop myself at home for one whole day.

stop thinking . and get ahead.
Joanne-
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Tuesday, December 11, 2007
12:58 AM

alrights. back home at 1am today . at least did not touch liquor anymore


i mean FOR ONE DAY.





went pubbing at 6am with terry and guys.


skipped school today cause of farking cb kia - WIRA.


well i hate him THISSSSSSSSSSS much.


and faci kept asking me to accept him - as teammate.


fark lar. i mean if i ever team up wit him again i will just go back home immediately. except for codes modules. im not stupid anymore. i dun wan flung my code modules ALL BECORZ OF TT FARKER.








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tomorrow will be a new day , as well as a fine day . well


i do not mind confessing wadever im thinking.


i miss you. thisssss much. feeling lost when i lost you. but anyway i know you let go easily. perhaps its all about love. love will always be love. full of responsibility , commitments , trusts, love , care , concern , etc and many others.


tiring isnt ? but its also full of happiness where one can always remember but not all the quarrels.





i agree that coraz i had been missing all the happy moments we used to had. i mean for the 1/2 year we had been tgt for EVERY SINGLE DAYS not leaving each other.





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dear alvin,


you had been a great guy to me. though quarrels farking happened over stupid stuffs like over - tomato , milo, toking to myself , guys , pub and many others, but all the happy moments you had gave, i've not forget and will never. but i always believe time will tells a lot. i dun know whether will we be friends back again , but i wished. i promised i will not carry hopes neither pestering.


on this day , i know things perhaps will better when you had a stable job , good lifes with all your friends , or perhaps without me. but i just wanna say once again , i will never forget all the times we had been tgt. =) thanks.


loves,


joanne.


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310807


Im just a doll being controlled. Not happy nor sad.Numb feelings sad cant be expressed. Happy is a must to show. No attitude to be shown . Cause i wont be happy though.I must be a doll being control .Last im rally noe happy. Reality is often painful and euphoria doesnt last.








050907


jo's turn to write feelings this way. No choice. Till now i dun know wad am i to him.Is it still love ot is he trying to shake me off.am i really that irritating or am i really disturbing him .sad and dissapoint is wad i have. Just tell me he is treating me this way cause he loves me.





060907


Holidays soon.But im feeling so lonely. Wad happened ? i dun know I dun wan him to leave me .but wad he is showing me is just like im one side love.Waiting for him to finish his stuffs and sleep. Im not angry. thats all baby i still love you .





070907


Im not drunk. Went tox , all known people . I dun knwo since when life with him change. I dun wanna lose him But i know im trying to be independent too . no quarrels is wad i hope.im sick and tired of all quarrels . CHANGED.why becoming so impatient and hot tempered that i still cant be myself.





080907


No quarrels finally. But bcorz of small mstuff gonna cold war soon. So sick and tired , its like not going to care and like fark . if you not going to listen to me i will fark care .Well i must say i must use to it. After al , long relation are liketht , i will just had to act blur.


090907


As usual stupid, dun know wad made the days like fark . Only the time i feel he loves me is that when he really hug me on tram. After that is all about ...





140907


In tw 4th day But its not fun at all. Im dried up, seriously Quarrels over stupid things. I miss mummy . why am i so tired , i just feel like crying out.








180907


SO boring. i dun wanna join in mj session with his friends again. They dun like to play mj with me , cause they all scold / swan me .and i dun dare play , cause i scare people scold me.





281007


i feel that im not much of this world. If you want to scold beat just be it.





031207


He asked me why i talked sourly ,Cause from the day i was to do things alone , i realised i was no more the old joanne wer derwas always people to acc . What should i say ? independent ? haa k doesnt matter anyway. i dun need relysion anymore. Thanks for making me independent.





111107


Today is 11th alr. I wanted to give him nice suprise on 18th but im short of cash . SO short of cash , im useless.





201107


The person i miss is still not back the missing old me , lost and lonely.





031207


the day where by both of us had our own way . Perhaps life would be better for you , no trouble for you to worry. I believe i said it and i will regret it. but at least life will be better for you isnt? i know its all my thinking then just let it be. i just loves to lie and bluff to myself.





*** DI YI CI AI DE REN ***





---
你的爱从此不再
我承受不来消失的太快回来
回到我身边不要再离开
寂寞的城市我符合不来
回到我身边不要再离开
落下的雨水刺痛我的心
狠狠刺痛我的心
我知你永远回不来
---
Joanne-
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Saturday, December 08, 2007
5:47 PM

8/12/07

back at 6am from dragonfly.
well, all krugers members. drink drank drunk.
i love pple all from krugers.
spice up my life. cool!

okies tonight at de royal.
haiis so far no pple wanna go. sians.
holidays round corner. outings soon.

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$missing =" missing something that it meant to be lost";
$heart =" days being together ";
$life=" remembering everynight ";
$night=" for always in my mind";

if ( $life == "you" ) {
echo $missing;

else if

( $night == "everyday" ) {
echo $heart;
echo "always on my mind";}
Joanne-
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Thursday, December 06, 2007
12:11 PM

okies. finally dec. and time farking flies.
haa.

im so tired. tired mentally and physically. . but well no one is going to worry for me. no one.

thanks for joshua , kelvin , simpoh , sunny , liting siping , vivian, andy . well all these people practically understands me. they are there when im really in need. despite when i am not feeling good.

well , wads passed has alr passed.
life is going to be back independent for me.

im just so tired that i had got no one to speak to alr.
this is all i have. - my fantasy blog.

holidays come come. faster pls.
Joanne-
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