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Saturday, February 24, 2007
4:52 AM

losing the sense of what am i doing
the sense of what should i do .

talked with kel and that idiot nick came and thanks fer ur swaning
nabei . im pissed. thanks

cashier clash. cb! i mean it's so easy to settle , but its like being made till so messy. and wtf! jon came and i asked fer help , he said ,"why you messed up such easy thingy ? " and he turned to tok to kel. thanks so much for ur kindness. the prob is im not keying everything. i intend to stop but ferleen intend to help , but just it's wrost , anyway my mood was just -0 degree !

thanks so much.

life is not so easy. so wad if i mean to look in a positive way.
i mean , well , i would want too.
im being so fake lar. i realised . but wad should or am i supposed to do ?
im in pub-line. what more could give me fast and easy cash ? i mean,
hey other then pros lar. nabei. HAIIS YAR.
thought its only 600++ a mth , why i sound as if its earning much ?

im seriously not happy today . how am i supposed to expressed myself ?
tru ? by ?
WHAT ELSE CAN I DO ?

i can live day by day by myself.
i can be as independent as how one can be .
i can do wadever anyone deem .
but i just feel so empty. so bored.

friends ? haha. i used to have so so many .
as time passed, all are busy in their own stuffs and that each grown to fufil what they wants.
aquaintance? well , i dun really like that , you know i will just hit it off with a smile.

anyway thanks so much kel talked to me. i think at least he understands and knows wad im doing , though not 100% , but at least he knows a lill.
thanks for a cust keep pushing tips to us. haha. and today tips is 40++. well , not much but today cust not many though.


i was told that i cud get u to solve my probs , cause u will always be there ,well , u think i dare? u think its right ?

FRIENDS are indeed impt , in fact so so impt to me too. once or perhaps always. but i din realised im insignificant lar. i dun knoe . perhaps im nt supposed to say insignificant , but just you cant live w/o friends den .i know. i was once like that. and im so sorry to tell him - im sorry . now i understand and realised.

im stuffing myself with vcds , youtubes and tbies.
my girl , hana kimi , channel Us and 8s. haha. cool.
so this is how my life supposed to be . perhaps i missed the old ones.

am i supposed to look forward or back to time machine ?
Joanne-
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Thursday, February 22, 2007
3:02 AM

LIFE IS ALL ABOUT GIVING IN .
AT THIS POINT OF TIME I REALLY FEEL LIKE GIVING UP THIS.
all this ; my wrking life in pub . this is tiring , though there are many people who will dotes on you . but i hate carry all the work scopes.
IM TIRED. i want to stop stop stop.
but if i stop , hows my bills ? and my expenses ?
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I HATE PEOPLE SCOLD ME ; I HATE BEING SAID . BE IT A LILL OR JUST SOME SARCASIUM.
well. im just like tt.
i dun feel tt im tt lousy , other then being pretty , i believe i can wrk . its just how u treat me , dun ever take my advantage. i hate that .
i know today help has been sponsored. if not i wont be back early.
im seriously a lill seh .
and i just dun feel like wrking till closing when everyone leaves me.
i hate cynthia's words . be it A FEW or A SENTENCE.
i just dun like it. i hate it when kel add in!
I HATE WHEN I FEEL EVERYONE AGAINST ME.
haha well , its me. my thinkings. sound stupid.
i make myself a promise. i want to stop drinking so much that everytime i wrk i will seh. i just drink to a limit and each time i wrk, if im supposed , i will wrk till closing with a nice ending and take a cab back home myself. i promise. instead of leaving. where im supposed to think .
all these sound contradicting.
but im goin to make it seems like its going to happened in reality .
i mean it. i will. just wrk and wrk and hopefully, [pay will increase.
FOR MUMMY, I WILL .
thanks bert and kel .


Joanne-
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Tuesday, February 20, 2007
4:29 AM

well,

1st day of new year . 7am

went ah ma hse ;


my ahh di ahhh *

dardar and ichigobliss
zf meet me d/s @ 730pm,
okays lar at least someone gt the heart frm his hse to der .

went parkway parade kbox , spent $40 leh!


session was frm 1030 to 3 . reached at 8 , went arcarde-timezone .



the crazys ones . - terry sky and zf




the bored one .

went sentosa meet bert ; was supposed to celebrate evelyn bday ,
but ... drunk as usual .den saw ledine's sis , den they went mac and back home .
reached home @ 645am.


2nd day of new year. and its 430am now.

just finish the gambling- session @ bert's bro house lar.

went lucy aunt place ; and lost 80$ to him. fcuk la.


my sweetie lill pie - dearr cheryl
with a biggggg mouth eh ?


but its okays , he lost 400$+ at his bro friend to his friend.

oh wtf man . the betting was big. im out fer it definately.


the first year my relatives came ; steamboat ; mj ; tv ; tok cok sessions .

well Again ,
tml is another day.

ang baos more ? anyone ?
Joanne-
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Sunday, February 18, 2007
11:11 AM

okays.
time flies
its another new year ; rem the last yr one ,
out wit zf and guys to bq and then partyworld. and quarrel wit eddie.
LOL. and now time changes everything.

the 4 guys came over tox but was rather packed ytd late nite. drunk as usual and NBCB both days drunk and vomit till 6am. fcuk man

i nid to change job. ASAP or rather another job to add on income.
though the cash flow has been better a LILL bit. but SHE complained that i did not bring money home. and hey , this is WTF.

I HATE TO TAKE CARE OF THE WHOLE TOX WHEN EVERYBODY DRUNK. THE WORKLOAD AND RESPONSIBILITY IS HEAVY! SERIOUS TO SAY ; I HATE THAT! I can help , but at least another one helping me right ? one drunk one high one seh . cb , im wrking too , i also WILL HIGH SEH AND DRUNK wad. NAH . STOP TREATING ME AS IF IM SUPER WOMAN can alr. 1 last time and i seriously will make my self dissapear .

alrights. HAPPY NEW YEAR *
i haven been sleeping since ytd 6am when now is only 11am .
some farker fool me. arghh.
mummie got no idea where to go . lol
perhaps just da yiyi and both ah mas house.
tml will be wrost bored bored bored!
i feel like K-ing ever since last with bert at partyworld.
but i got no voice. dwn wit s.throat and cough.

alrite , too naggy fer this post ,
mummie had been asking me to sleep.
well , nights!
Joanne-
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Thursday, February 15, 2007
1:15 AM

140207
a simple val day
a special day
be it fwen ; lover ; pursuer;
all a happy val day .


mine just out to slackk ;

dinner @ ms parris





beginning of the day






end of the day





the stupid one.

movie @GV - protege

end of the day . =]
simple but fulfiling one.
Joanne-
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Wednesday, February 14, 2007
2:34 PM

"Because You Loved Me"
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in youI'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I amBecause you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I amBecause you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I amBecause you loved me
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
happy valentine to all * =] <3


Joanne-
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Wednesday, February 07, 2007
2:59 AM

moving on with life
the correct choice to it
stay strong to that if you think it's right
no one have the say
when decision is made correct.



just finish wrk ; okies. 1st time wrking alone all nite.
lucky there was people acc me .
it was boring , though it was busy .

words to say was that im sorry.
be it how life will be ,
i will never forget .
heart will still be there
for i believe.
nevermind wad u dun understand
to the sms i said.
life will gonna be this way .
sooner we will understand.

YU CHENG QING - KAO JING .
Joanne-
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Tuesday, February 06, 2007
2:52 AM

IM DAMN PISSED OFF LAR. CCB!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

I FEEL LIKE SLAPPING FARKER LAR. CCB.


KNN LAR.

I WISH HIM ;
IN A PATHETIC STATE SOON LARR .


FARK TTS ALL.
Joanne-
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Monday, February 05, 2007
12:02 AM

tired i can be ; days of quarrelling
to the end it will be , memories shall be keep .




ahhhhhhh im tired.
cramps! sucks okay . watch superstar ; stayed home whole day .
well ytd had a havoc + freaking day . all thanks to somebody lar.
cb i hate LECTURES. cb . niam-ings SPOILT my days.
and tts why i hate to take cab wit him !!

another happening day the day b4
went bq pub and to mos
cool* after tt went eating at dunknow where ;

porridge porridge porridge.


i want to PASS MY ADVANCE! GOD PLS BLESSED ME ?
I PROMISE I WILL TRY MY BEST .
i want to dye hair and to mlysia. corz its so cheap.

HAHA. IM TIRED. SLPING*
Joanne-
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Friday, February 02, 2007
3:43 AM

god has never been nice to me
life has never been smooth for me
am i being pessi , or am i being opti ?
for the ups and down i ever meet .
Say that i am create to withstand obstacles ?
say that i am here to own the strength for everything ?
i should think i am never able to do it .

wad actually am i thinking ?
or wad am i actually doing ?
things are that easy .
when i know im sinking.

sorrows comes after happiness
happiness came after sorrows
should this i call lifes ?

is that so happening , for that i shall say ?
should it be that hectic ?




well its 345 and i just reach home waiting for hair to dry.
and the wrost thing is fark!
school is 730 .
which is 4 hrs away from now .
am i supposed to slp or am i supposed to wait ?
ahhhhhhhhhh .* wrking is hell to me today lar. cb *
for all i can say , i wish i cud do it , but i cant .
im seriously not superwoman .
but thinking back , since mummy can , why not me ?
for the pay of$60 + per day , who can sponsor me ?

money money money .
my brain is full of that .
i just need 1k per mth. i think im not up to it.

i nid a brk . but once i stop , theres no money .
well , im that money -minded .
when i want to help her pay electric bills , my hp bills ,WHICH IS 2 BILLS
and finish my last $150 dental appt. as well as the stupid car licsence thingy ,
nevertheless , my OWN expenses ? my shopping ? my daily eatign expenses ?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

fark .


i think i am lost. i dun know wad should i do .

i wanna go out wit friends , who is supposed to be free ?
pls call my hotline. i mean those close ones.
i miss u all....
Joanne-
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