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Sunday, July 09, 2006 2:46 AM

im in a super sonic farking messed up mood but im kinda calm and peace. i dun know why eh . it seems that its my heart struggling .

im back from AH ma`s chalet and it`s kinda fun .its a 1k chalet. lols. its 300+ PER nite! i LOVE ~~hate~~ family gatherings. it never fails to bring all of us tgt. i mean this tyme , it really brings me ALL of us tgt . including mummie .

suppose to wrk today . okies. im so srry for last min not wrking. apologised. but i was in between families and working okie. corz i din know today celebrating i tot it was ytd. so i said okie to them i mean since it`s a fri and i am not working . but who expect that they was blowing bday cake today . and when i said i got to leave at 6 plus , everybody nagged at me . i mean i was in a sandwich situation . and u know the feeling of finding replacement and NO ONE WANTS TO REPLY YOU. ITS AS IF DYING BUT HANGING THERE. URGH* but anyway YW took cover of me. all i can say was thanks you . aunties dey all were so happy man , -.- they say thz to my supervisor. haha. who is you lar - quah yew wei .

okies back to chalet ; although reached der rather late , ard 4 -5 pm , we went bb ball court , eventually to beach .
BBall court , fightings were gg on b/t 2 kids who were biological bros. was playing bbal wif mummie when we heard shoutings , the younger was lying on the floor. and the elder one was kicking him as though he's dead . wth* i mean i cant imagine he is treating his bro like this i mean even though the younger one is at fault . the way he is treating him was like daring him to fight . he punched him as if his bro's face was fake , and punched till his specs was slantt and not proper fer wearing shud i say . we went and stop but mummie was being shouted to let go . wth it was really ridiculous . fight stop aft we asked them to go back to their chalet . as expected , we knew both of them would be scolded . we dun wished to care. i mean the 2 of them since young is alr damn freaking ~~polite~~ RUDE. i mean the elder one is alr NO MANNERS. well* all i cud say : love your family . you will regret if you misuse pple's concern .

mummie and i went to beach . haha . our paradise . we tok and chatt . and pick so so so many snails shells? lols. so nice eh . pink color snail shell . i mean im mountains tortoise okie. i din see pynk snail shells b4 ! =D collect sum of them and took many many photos. which had been uploaded in multiply. not long later , boy came and bday cake is being blown , once again , pics were takens. =D
* www.ichigojxen.multiply.com

hope ah ma got a happy bday lar. =D i love you ma ma! hees !

i mean all these shall made me forget wadever i wanted to forget . er ... i mean . its nothing big and joanne tan just stop kicking a big fuss over it. just quit if you wish . just like wad ivan just told you ? just dun made the wrong step . well , all started cuase of this girl but im not blaming her pls. ! i know . and im nt tt childish . i mean at least im still a lill mature . i only realised tt travelling now does matter to me. i love SOOMEE customers der . and i know definitely if i quited , the ones i cant bear are yw , alvin and von and some dear customers as i said lar . i might be quitting but i also but not be qutting. im struggling . i dun kn0w wad should i wrk as fer now . the hrs and time wise , its hard to get a good one .

well , im kinda hard these days . i dun know why everything seems to troubling me. and tyme you seem like so sticking close to me . i mean are we still really that in separatable ? i miss and love you yar. THISSSSSSSSSSS much . but i wish to be kinda independent . can i ? im rather mood off these few days and often scold you . i dun mean it . sumtymes i really tot im having sum kind of illness eh that i feel like killing myself. i dun knoe wads happening to me .sumtymes i just hate to see the YOU - the soft side of you , the easily cried you , the tokin w/o using brain you , the trying to torlerate me you , nt interested in wad is happening in my sch YOU , always linked other guys to me YOU , the wadever things i dun like. de you. but i knoe no matter how strong a person is , he / she will still have negative sides unless in tv dramas. but dun you think u are too over for a guy . well . im nt supposed to say all these if im loving you . i dun know all these are nt supposed to say . but however i hopefully you wont read these then . all for all . no more sorry i will say but just i dun mean it . im still loving you .

i realised there is still stupid pple who will alway view my blog ehh . lols. yar that is non other then - alan eh . well , thx fer ur kponess. hahA. and im not sweet . u LIER. i hate lier. meet up soon and i wan to return u all ur VCDs!!!! okies? =D all the best to u and yr gf ! hees.

dee : dun be too blind in love okie? i will love you. =D
les: i wan to hug you . hahaha
jess : i still haven meet up wif u!! urgh!
ying: why nowadays no msg me liao ? heee~ miss you.

I missing you ladies . MUACKS*

*IT'S VERY SCARING LIVING IN PEOPLE'S WORLD. LIVE IN YOUR OWN .

- dun live in the world of pple's comments. if u mind wad pple said and u follw wad they said abt you , you will always had a hard tyme changing yourself . be yourself and do wad you one . dun live in pple's world. =D

Joanne-
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