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Saturday, July 29, 2006
11:42 PM

came back home damn early.
bcorz of tt stupid "BABY" causing my stomach cramp.CB lar.
if not we will be at cinema wif DEE now .
WAS FEELING DAMN PATHERTIC JUST NOW LAR.
thank my SINDEE and sorry to her boy. haha
making them so contradict . SORRY AH GONG AND AH MA EH?
wish u guys having ROMANTIC movie and not quarrelling okies?

came back early ,
went to 768 eat dinner , slept on bus and was feeling better. =D
BOUGHT fruits , had fondue at home. LOL*
FARKER watching tbie now . and i had nth to do .
waiting for washing machine to STOP and hang his clothes.
PATHETIC ME , IM LIKE HIS MAID =[

went bugis wif DEE ,
bought ALL his stuffs , spent almostt ehh 40$ including eating and
sum of my accessories .
I WANT THAT JUICY COUTURE BAG!
it's farking nice , THOUGH ITS NOT GENUINE. =X
ITS TRANSPARENT . NICER THEN ALL COLORS ! URGH.
TT AUNTIE GIVE ME $25/- =[
FARK LAR. BRING NOT ENUFF MONEY .
i just wan it i just wan it understand?
im gg to get it next week. I DUN CARE.
FARK SIA ,this mth broke lar .
but my papillo REACHING SOON. =x
MONEY MONEY PLS .

EHH..ALLOWANCE LEFT 70$ LOL .
BILL , SHUD BE 140 ?
im gg to pay fer last mth de 1st .
which is $80/-
ehh .. $90 + $220 + $70
= $380 - $200 - $100
wah fark! im broke.

GOD PLS GIF ME WIN LOTTERY ! =X


Joanne-
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Friday, July 28, 2006
1:15 AM

yawnn*

i wan to slp lar. though today din turn up for lesson lol*
i think i am crazy .

COUNTDOWN TO LEAVING HARK .
i still love YW and alvin.
I got to know YUHONG. shud i say JUST?
he acc me home . i mean walked lar. till hse d/s corz he leave opp 888 .
sumbodie PS me lar.CB.
just as i was worrying who will accing me take lift ,
I SAW MY BRO!! WAHAHAHA* im so xing yun.

went back ITC ; take my module cert , ehhh A ;A ; B
HAHA.* thats my ITC grade. happy~
and i saw daphanne , huimin , lols tt silly ger.

oh yar. met up wif my dearest sindee . BUT she is always seem not like SINDEE
when she is wif shaun. =[
and shaun is always quiet. i dun knoe wad to say when i see him. haha
i feel awkward.

met up wif my long lost fwen ytd -mr ZF. lol*
i think i enjoyed tokin and slacking with him.
i mean ONLY him. not wif his khakis.
at least ders still things to tok ,
though it had been ages since we last went out tgt.
ages = i mean YEARS.
thank for slacking ehh.. sept then NS eh ?
meet up again =D

i enjoyed my chatting session wif my angel ! lol*
she said she is complaining, but she is not pls. i enjoyed and i love =D
devil by her side. LOL* ke lian . all da best lar <3

where is my jessica .
so long din see her ,
i think i see her i will HUG and cry. haha.
SINCE AGES PLS.

OH YAH! AND my lovely ying! omg!
she said she cuming today.
YOU LIED!
i hate you =[
i wan to meet u lar. =D

tml got sch , 2 tutions and mit up wif ...CB-er lol
i finally can spent the nite wif him.
i seriously wanna slap him lar.
tt farker is so kute. haha
alrites , farker , GUSTO KO IKAW*
Joanne-
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Tuesday, July 25, 2006
10:56 PM

ahhh.. i want to slp . im so tired * my throat making me to cough it out. HAHAHA yar its that uncomfortable! and my head is constantly farking pain. teeth also pain lar. CB. =x

THIS IS FARKIN DISGUSTING. A CRAZY AND PSYCHO. OMG* SHE SURELY GOT SMTH IN HER MIND . OH WAD THE FARK! I AM SO NTH TO SAY OR EXPLAIN . OKIE I WILL LET IT BE . ITS NOT MY PROBLEM ANYWAY .

im done with my skirt . hAhA. i need more colors and more ... hmm* TOPS! i run out of clothes.

mummy gif me $20 pls i left $6/- which i had never been so poor b4. lol*

I WAN TO PASS TML UT. AND I WAN TO SLP NOW ... !! =[

I HATE TT FELLOW! HE KEPT ON MAKING ME MISSED HIM WHEN I TRIED TO CATCH HIM. URGH ...I HATE HIM I HATE HIM. YES!! THIS MUCHHH....*
Joanne-
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Monday, July 24, 2006
1:38 AM

im feeling tired lar .
i dun seems to feel well .
i bet i had not getting enuff slp these few days .

i HATE HARK . IMEAN I HATE JANE , AND U KNOE ALL WHOEVER TEACHING OR WADEVER OVER DER .

went to so call "chu shi" wif him lar. his troupe need pple lar . im his last resort loh ... okies , since he had been treated like a slave by me for ard 3 days? , i promised to helped him =D so i wwont complained much but try to learnt wad is gg on and how shud i performed .

I CAN SAY THIS IS THE EVER 1ST TYME I TRY SMTH WHEREBY EVERYONE LOOKING AND IS LIKE TO THE GODS ? =X SCARYY LAR.
AND THE PROGRAMME WAS LIKE FROM 8AM TILL 4AM ? WTF* IM typically drained off. but i did not blamed him , corz its not his fault and i mean no one else fault. its my tireness i dun knoe how to stand it. i mean i had seated fer so long alr and im having serious long headache . so im kinda freaked out and scolded him. =x SORRY LAR FATTY.

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SCHOOL LAR.! BORING !! FASTER HOLIDAYS CAN ? IM TIRED ...

YW i love you! =x lol . you took care me in hark. really well. =D
Joanne-
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Saturday, July 22, 2006
1:31 AM

i am so so tired.

tired of everything .

im so damn farking stress up by work and studies larr. CB LAR. FARK MAN

i am so boringg ... i mean ... i dun knoe wad i wan to say but i knoe school today is really dam farking stupid and boring lar. KNN CB* next fri i try not to be in school man. NB.

i dun knoe wad i just can do der. i mean i dun even know pple over there and i seem to be on the way of people. i might as well go aside and sit or rather walk rite? and i dun mean to quarrel lar cb. and i saw him doesnt mean im excited u farker cb . he mean so much to me. as in my long lost friend. PLS MAKE THIS CLEAR LAR. SO WULIAO ! im not saying anything but i just wan to say that i kinda find u more and more .....
i mean i had alr do the most thing which i had never wanted to do in my life. i knoe this is to help u . can u pls dun always like , i dun knoe wad. i really dun feel like bloggin out everything and at this very moment im loss for words.

I MISS MUMMY . LOL SHE ASKED ME TO TAKE CARE AND DUN ALWAYS STAY OUT LATE. =X SUMTIMES I MISS HER LAR .really. =x

OKIES. i miss my girl fwens. so so much . pls dun ever let me lost contact wif them can ? for my godness sake .

im so worry abt tml . i miean i dun even know the basic or single thingy .i just hope that every thing can pass so fast , whether i like wad u are doing or not depend on tml thingy . YOUNEED NOT ACC ME EVERY MOMENT BUT in the mean time , if u dun accompany me , pls dun say anything is i tok to ur friend or anything .

IM NOT FLIRTING NEITHER I MISS ANY OF MY EX. BUT IF U CONTINUE TO BE LIKE FARK SWAN SIAOING , I THINK I WILL .

im not scolding or reprmanding you . pls ddo not think so . for all i wan to say im loveing u .

sorry for making u to rush corz of me. i do not mean it . and pls know who im loving and who are only my friends.
Joanne-
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Wednesday, July 19, 2006
10:59 PM

i had a great talk wif lesly ! im so happy .

omg* it had been ages since we ever tok things , i mean our everythings. wow .

today din meet him. lol. i shall say i really miss him eh . yes ... THISSSSSSSS Much again .

urgh ! im gonna quit tt P1 tution job. dun take tution tcher fer granted lar . cb. u want jiu call me go dun wan jiu asked me dun go . wth* u think i UR PRIVATE TCHER AH ? IF U INCREASE MY PAY TO 150 PER MTH , I FOLLOW UR ORDER NO PROBLEM . but wtf* its only 90$. and u expect me to cum and go as u like. cb think of wad happened today and the 2nd tyme im pissed off!

i ate a lort this few days! omg! but wt maintained not bad. =D

UT tml ! today then i realised my results really sucks. i mean i will buck up . i promise* i just wan the bursary . !! i nid tt 1k . wow* i will reached early and studie hard . i promise. i mean after the holiday , 2nd sem . i wan to get as many As this time. pray fer me .
Joanne-
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Tuesday, July 18, 2006
11:31 PM

FARK EH * FLUNK LAR.

I TOT HE DUN KNOE WAD'S UNDERSTANDING WAS . but eventually he did things made me luff. i mean MANAGE to . and it was both fault actually.. so i think i mean to say " SORRY" and u bastard . say that to me again if u see this!

SCHOOL OR RATHER MODULE with TT RAELEEN TAN!! fark. i had always dislike and hate her. i always got to entertain myself so as not to made me get to the level of HATING HER. NBCB. i can only say . i HATE HER . yes! THIS MUCH ! IF ANY RP PPLE SEE THIS let her know , i wont mind . i hate her always boost her son ard and the way she look at pple and treating students , and her biasness always sucks .

I LEARNT TT PPLE CAN CHANGED !! TILL... so scary . omg* a so call nice girl changed till. YUCKS. okie lar i mean i shud not probe into other pple affair okies. but i just find it disgusting lar. throwing life away making pple worried fer them eeek .

I FEEL LIKE EATING LAKSA AND SATAY BEEHOON!
BUT IM FAT LARR!! URGGH*

baby; wad i said is truth or not i think it does not matter anymore alrite? =D ilu<3
Joanne-
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Monday, July 17, 2006
1:47 AM

I HATE HARK ! LOLS NO MATTER WAD .

I DISLIKE MANAGEMENT OVER DER SERIOUSLY*


IM TIRED .

I DUN WAN GO SCHOOL LEHH ...

I WAN TO PASS MY THEORY .

=D

i miss you *<3
Joanne-
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Friday, July 14, 2006
1:22 AM

HAHAHA*
HARK IS NOT FUN ANYMORE

I TRUST YOUWEI SO SO MUCH . NO MORE OTHERS.

IT IS A PLACE WHERE RUMORS PASS DAMN FAST AND A PLACE OF BEING ACCUSING.

CUSTOMERS NO OOTHER FUN . OTHER THEN 1 OR 2 ?

I SIMPLY BEGIN TO DISLIKE POLITICS OVER DER =[


IM TIRED !!


AND BABY. HAPPY 9TH MONTH ! I LOVE YOU
Joanne-
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Wednesday, July 12, 2006
11:43 PM

IM SERIOUSLY TIRED. WAITING FER yw TO BE BACK HOME TO TELL ME WHETHER I STILL NEED TO REPORTED TO WRK TML. IM SO SO TIRED LAR.

TODAY SCI SUCKS .

TML MATHS UT DIE .

LIFE IS BORING ACCEPT THE MISSING OF YOU GUYS.
Joanne-
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Tuesday, July 11, 2006
11:59 PM

im back and finally back to blogging.

these few days so tired. and i finally told YW abt quitting stuffs. u know it took me quite a lort of courage to tell him even though its only quitting. my live and dead is tml . i so tired and sick of hark i hate pple der smtimes .ESP CERLYN . WTF OKIE I mean i hate being accused lar. if i did i will admit lar. but PLS DUN CHANGE MY WRDS. and the wrost thing is tt she still act kute in front of me . wtf* im pissed off lar. i just cant forget tt accusing incident. eddie also sucks lar. pple over there , other then yw , alvin and von , i dun think anymore fer me to miss lar. the trusting ones are NO MORE. i enjoyed wrking wif alvin so much he`s funny smtime. =D

school is getting boring and sucky too . 6 more weeks to go. end faster pls. im sick of school now . i haven complete the 40 pts tok man . wth! more and more pple was like ... i dun knoe lar. hate or dislike. one thing im asure of is I HATE TT ENTERPRISE FACI LAR. i dun even remembering her name at all .haha* its kinda insignificant though i respect her at tymes. but listen up its AT TYMEs!

these few days kept on hanging out wif that fellow. lols. our love constantly increasing due to ...certain reason which i dun knoe also. im falling so deep fer him . SO , PLS DUN ABUSED AND ABANDONED ME. IM ONLY A GIRL . hees! treasure me so you wont regret.

AI YAR I JUST HOPE I CAN get another higher pay job asap lar. w/o money i really cant survive long. pls god!


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im goin to edit into w25c blogging place so tt eventually if we part , this will remain . =D but gif me tyme cause i think i had forget the passwrd. haha
Joanne-
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Sunday, July 09, 2006
2:46 AM

im in a super sonic farking messed up mood but im kinda calm and peace. i dun know why eh . it seems that its my heart struggling .

im back from AH ma`s chalet and it`s kinda fun .its a 1k chalet. lols. its 300+ PER nite! i LOVE hate family gatherings. it never fails to bring all of us tgt. i mean this tyme , it really brings me ALL of us tgt . including mummie .

suppose to wrk today . okies. im so srry for last min not wrking. apologised. but i was in between families and working okie. corz i din know today celebrating i tot it was ytd. so i said okie to them i mean since it`s a fri and i am not working . but who expect that they was blowing bday cake today . and when i said i got to leave at 6 plus , everybody nagged at me . i mean i was in a sandwich situation . and u know the feeling of finding replacement and NO ONE WANTS TO REPLY YOU. ITS AS IF DYING BUT HANGING THERE. URGH* but anyway YW took cover of me. all i can say was thanks you . aunties dey all were so happy man , -.- they say thz to my supervisor. haha. who is you lar - quah yew wei .

okies back to chalet ; although reached der rather late , ard 4 -5 pm , we went bb ball court , eventually to beach .
BBall court , fightings were gg on b/t 2 kids who were biological bros. was playing bbal wif mummie when we heard shoutings , the younger was lying on the floor. and the elder one was kicking him as though he's dead . wth* i mean i cant imagine he is treating his bro like this i mean even though the younger one is at fault . the way he is treating him was like daring him to fight . he punched him as if his bro's face was fake , and punched till his specs was slantt and not proper fer wearing shud i say . we went and stop but mummie was being shouted to let go . wth it was really ridiculous . fight stop aft we asked them to go back to their chalet . as expected , we knew both of them would be scolded . we dun wished to care. i mean the 2 of them since young is alr damn freaking polite RUDE. i mean the elder one is alr NO MANNERS. well* all i cud say : love your family . you will regret if you misuse pple's concern .

mummie and i went to beach . haha . our paradise . we tok and chatt . and pick so so so many snails shells? lols. so nice eh . pink color snail shell . i mean im mountains tortoise okie. i din see pynk snail shells b4 ! =D collect sum of them and took many many photos. which had been uploaded in multiply. not long later , boy came and bday cake is being blown , once again , pics were takens. =D
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hope ah ma got a happy bday lar. =D i love you ma ma! hees !




i mean all these shall made me forget wadever i wanted to forget . er ... i mean . its nothing big and joanne tan just stop kicking a big fuss over it. just quit if you wish . just like wad ivan just told you ? just dun made the wrong step . well , all started cuase of this girl but im not blaming her pls. ! i know . and im nt tt childish . i mean at least im still a lill mature . i only realised tt travelling now does matter to me. i love SOOMEE customers der . and i know definitely if i quited , the ones i cant bear are yw , alvin and von and some dear customers as i said lar . i might be quitting but i also but not be qutting. im struggling . i dun kn0w wad should i wrk as fer now . the hrs and time wise , its hard to get a good one .

well , im kinda hard these days . i dun know why everything seems to troubling me. and tyme you seem like so sticking close to me . i mean are we still really that in separatable ? i miss and love you yar. THISSSSSSSSSSS much . but i wish to be kinda independent . can i ? im rather mood off these few days and often scold you . i dun mean it . sumtymes i really tot im having sum kind of illness eh that i feel like killing myself. i dun knoe wads happening to me .sumtymes i just hate to see the YOU - the soft side of you , the easily cried you , the tokin w/o using brain you , the trying to torlerate me you , nt interested in wad is happening in my sch YOU , always linked other guys to me YOU , the wadever things i dun like. de you. but i knoe no matter how strong a person is , he / she will still have negative sides unless in tv dramas. but dun you think u are too over for a guy . well . im nt supposed to say all these if im loving you . i dun know all these are nt supposed to say . but however i hopefully you wont read these then . all for all . no more sorry i will say but just i dun mean it . im still loving you .

i realised there is still stupid pple who will alway view my blog ehh . lols. yar that is non other then - alan eh . well , thx fer ur kponess. hahA. and im not sweet . u LIER. i hate lier. meet up soon and i wan to return u all ur VCDs!!!! okies? =D all the best to u and yr gf ! hees.

dee : dun be too blind in love okie? i will love you. =D
les: i wan to hug you . hahaha
jess : i still haven meet up wif u!! urgh!
ying: why nowadays no msg me liao ? heee~ miss you.

I missing you ladies . MUACKS*


*IT'S VERY SCARING LIVING IN PEOPLE'S WORLD. LIVE IN YOUR OWN .

- dun live in the world of pple's comments. if u mind wad pple said and u follw wad they said abt you , you will always had a hard tyme changing yourself . be yourself and do wad you one . dun live in pple's world. =D
Joanne-
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Friday, July 07, 2006
1:22 AM

IT STARTED WITH A KISS . NICE*

im so tired. terribly tired and shag . feel like slp for ages , and not waking up .

UT tml and now i dun even knoe wad the hella thing is all abt .
tutuion tml. hopefully i wont be tired.
ahma's bday cuming butthe wrost thing is i dun knoe when =x chalet tml !
hark today was boring


i dun knoe should i leave or not , i mean , its not jealousy or wadever made me came up wif this idea. its tt sumtyme its really tiring to travell so so far.

sumtymes it made me feel sucky wrking der. but sumtyme i must really say i enjoy it!
i love pple over der i mean SOME OF THEM. yw,von,yx,alvin,jane, some kind and cute customers , BUT there are customer who are cheapskate , stingy , greedy , irritating , troublesome , yaya ... and wadever , PLS HARK GOT LORTS OF THEM . and they never failed to spoilt my day! urgh!

i will be missing them so much and so many ...


SHOULD I OR SHOULD I NORT ?



PLS god . pls pray fer me tt i will pass my UT tml. thx*


i am missing him.. *****************************************************this much.
Joanne-
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Tuesday, July 04, 2006
10:40 PM

oh baby. my fat thighs got one seems like SM scar like tt . =x

a markings with one straight line.

thz to foosball located at library . =D

had one romantic walked wif carrie only , it was the 1st tyme that 2 of us walking over to cwp .

was so damn tired but was kinda slacking today . i dun really like to sit beside ron . i mean , not his a bisexual . but the reason that he is not really communicating wif grp and was like kept on asking unnessesary stuffs like how to change blog , how to do blogskin , why this and why that . i do not mean ofeensive but hey pls , we are in the mid of discussing ppt rite? cant u just like stop all these and complete it later ? i mean i are using net so often . he will help , only when u asked . and he gave work of his own words . he's clever but its not wad he's supposed to do on mar. haii yoh its so ... =.= forget it. once in a week thing.

i realised tat i certainly dislike that particular person . but i know he/she will never ever realised and that was why this is like not having anything. its good. at least theres no quarrel . pls. its not tt im not putting any efforts to save it. but i felt so fed up and STUPID to do such thing again . OMG* i mean if it really happened and i really chose to repeat history , i must be a super sonic idiot. but im not hating my dearsss ... im just disliking .

I NEED TO SLIMMED DOWN . SOMEONE IS COMPLAINING.

*STAY ALIVE* im goin to watch you . haha.

and i realised that my bro is so damn strong that he can piggy back me. oh hey pls. its smth tt shoud be happy okie. guy of 80 and 70 aid im heavy and wth ! my bro was only 58? and he say it was easy . haha. was it bcorz u guys are too FAT? but anyway he's so amazing. hahaha.

im missing my girlfwens again . =[ i miss clubbing life sumhow. though i cant smoke much as b4 =[ im missingg .. the everything .


Joanne-
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Saturday, July 01, 2006
2:17 PM

im back from all the things recently .

i think im supposed to go on an revision of myself . i mean ...

JOANNE is not pretty neither she is cute .
She is noisy as well as she is not femine.
She has a ah - lian image,even though she is not .
She has a bad attitude even though she understands you .
She always act as if everyone owns her and as if she is a princess,
that her bf always got to do minor things fer her .
she get jealousy easily at tymes.
she get quiet when she is not well , not happy but not angry .
she can get hurt and being sensivity for your words to her.
she often filled with bad words even though she is just joking and doesnt mean anything .
she is lame when she is only crapping and jokings.
she is thicked -skinned at times as she just wants to be protective to herself when others hurled or bully at her.
she always want to learn to be independent though she hates to be.
She is flirt at times , when she saw someone who is as cool as HE JUN XIANG .
and so ...



because she owns all this points, there are people who do not really like JOANNE and ends up comparing her to other more femine , good , nice girl .


i mean , is it time to change myself into sumone much more better too ? sumone of 18yr old . and not remain as wad i am till 21? wad if i am who i am till 21 ? ppl will goin to start saying i am childish . im not angry neither am i unhappy wif anything or any body . noth made me do all this. but this is just sumthing to remind me tt i am not supposed to be wad i am .

i mean for all the least i shud stop hurling vulgarities. and stop my attitudes , or rather be someone with NOT that ahlian looks, though i know there is nothing i cud do to my face since im born with that . stop being so dependent on people and not to be loud in everything. i knoe i will still be myself for the tyme being but i will definitely changed for the better ... i mean sumone of my age.

i had this BF who supports me in wadever i do . i will never forgets everythiing he said ytd nite. seriously im touched by all his words which comfort me when i feel tt he do not understands me. sumone who always claimed he will be der for me when im inneed. and now der he is ... baby. i love you .


seriously lost contact wif my baby jessica. and got to meet her up wif my lesly , sindee. and pls. they are goin to be my life tyme buddies. i love you guys. and i love ytd triple dates! i mean even though tru out thie LIFE TIME thingy , there are goin to be DOWNs and DOWNs and DOWNs , but i knew we will cre8 more UPs , as well as HAPPINESS for this LONG-LIFE TYME FRIENDSHIP. =D watched RE-CYCLE .its a touching ghost show? lols. not bad. kinda scary but i wont say tt its lame and not able to understand . but i will say its a not bad show. oh yar . at BEN AND JERRY , ders soccer fans... ALL PHOTOS WILL BE UPLOADED TO MY-MULTIPLY. =D



*we will be the "LJS" w/o another J for ONLY the tyme being.
" the copy right version of LONG JOHN SILVER. =D *


the POWER of soccer at BEN and JERRY.

* PLS DUN ABANDON ME * I WONT WANNA LIVE IN A PLACE WHERE THINGS ARE BEING ABANDONED.

ALL PPLE OUT DER WHO KNOW JOANNE TAN.SM , PLS DUN EVER FORGET ME . =D
Joanne-
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