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Saturday, June 10, 2006 10:44 AM

im awakened . cause i had been woken up . but its okies corz i made this decision ytd . went watch OMEN , was nt bad .

im always figuring . am i missing you or am i depending on you ? are you always an angel or are you a devil ? i had always got lost when im facing the fierce you . this is wad u scold me. " KNNBCCB" damn freaking in the morning. well * i had always detest pple scolding me. ESP YOU. but wad more cud i complain ? at certain tymes , you seemed the the angel of all and with a task of protecting me as well as gifing me happiness . but of all this certain tyme , there are also tyme whereby facing you i felt really lost . i dun knoe what`s more the fierce side of you will do . KILL ME ? SCOLD SOME FREAKING FARKING WRDS IN FRONT OF ME ? JUMP DWN ? WELL . I always scare tt one day i might just die in ur hands or rather you just do smth stupid to urself.

IS THIS SUPPOSED TO BE THREATENING ?

for all i can say im really missing you as well as scaring of you..u reallie never failed to made me fear of you . tears out from me are always the fearness towards you and not im under wad stress . im always lost in facing that KIND of you . PLS. this is wad i onlie know to do - CRY. this is not the way to get ur sypathetic . but all i can say im a no-solve problem ~~crying~~ baby . i can only cry when i met problems i dun knoe how to solve.

I DUN KNOE WAD TO DO WHEN I SEE UR TT FAUSTRATED FACE. I REALLIE FEEL I HATE YOU .

i got no one to confide to cause this is wad im the only one goin tru. u can just hurl on anyothers if u want , but they may not care as much and they might not gif a damn , and thus they also wont understand wth im fearing .

are things happening continously these few days . im brking dwn these few days . seriously i need to stop all these . PLS. im nth but just crazy . sorry for creating troubles. to halt all these problems is NOT to TOK TO ME. but to understand.

AM I HAVING A FAIRY TALES OR AM I LIVING IN REALITY ?

ARE YOU EVENTUALLY AN ANGEL OR DEVIL ?

Joanne-
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