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Tuesday, March 28, 2006
1:52 AM

yeah* im back.

why am i relying on sweets onmy lyfe. i realised i cannot live w/o swits. i get uncomfortable.

okies. spent so so much money. i mean i`ve drawn so much money . never in my life b4 . today. went to arcade and of cause. spent lots of money in der. and went to kbox. hmmm* it nt a v fyne day .

sumbodie is having sum ATTP . its scaryx. i always got to face this kinda of attitude. its scary you know ? hmm* no matter how many tymes i complained result wud still be the change .a leopard will never changes its spot. u knoe why ? corz leopard is having spots ALL OVER THE body . but this leopard have FATS all over . so im wondering why cant this leopard changed ? -.-"

but anyway the nite ends still smooth.

im having a sistas session wif my girls on wed . but j and y wont be der . due to some personal reasons? hmmm* its okies anyway im waiting fer tt day .

I WAN TO DYE MY HAIR! I MEAN... same as urs! but i`ve NO tyme! oh dear. i realised such a busy person i am . expect fer monday ? >.<>

3 days camp at RP. wondering will it be a boring one. and yet i did nt take note of the day and tyme =x hopefully they wont remind me. so i wont got to go . =x 3 days is goin to take up my money you knoe? tyme is my money fer now. i got to earn back wadever spent on chalet . haha*

okies. here im going to stop.
oh yah! b4 i stop . im reminded of sumone. !
MR YW~ dun kneo will u see this entries. since u always KPO here. =-x but here i am goin to tell you .. dun get so stressup in lyfe yea? sch mates are all like this. just dun care them . and of corz wrking lyfe .. and of corz lurfe lyfe . ai yah* i knoe you are OLD enuff fer me to mention all this. im mentioning in case u forget yea? =p

okies. sum idiot is waiting fer me to JAMMED. =x lalala~ iMU. see ya tml kies? =D sorrie fer wadever today . heex.
Joanne-
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Friday, March 24, 2006
1:39 AM

lalala~ back from hark . and had realised days at hark aint tt boring . saw lorts of old customers today . hmmm* well , if anybody wanna knoe wheres hark , just log onto , www.harkmusic.com . so u guys will knoe wad im doing. a waitress but nt pub kind yea ? hope u all visit me yea? im wrkin thurs and sun . tell me when u wanna cum i will wrk. =P

im hereby to anounce .
i have a boyfriend who is so much nagging . so irritating .
i have boyfriend who always wants me to msg him whenever i reached home.
i have a boyfriend who will called me 22 time within 15 min just to make sure im back home.
i have a boyfriend who always wants me to acc him. always wants me to call him 24/7.
i have a boyfriend always shout at me and make me scare . always scold me whenever he wants.
i have a boyfriend who haf damn bad temper , always get irritated by bits of thing and always makes me felt lost.
i have a boyfriend who always love to be vain. always wants to style his hair high high and put on his hand accessories b4 he goes out.
i have a boyfriend who loves to stick wif me and be remind of where am i.
i have a boyfriend who dont watch tbiex and always stuck in front of computer .
i have a boyfriend who complains easy whenever he cannot take it.
LASTLY , i HAVE a boyfriend whom i love so much and as tyme passed by , i realised tt this boyfriend im having is simply too delicious fer me to eat as his very meatyy . im happie to have this boyfriend. ILOVEyou. <3
Joanne-
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Monday, March 20, 2006
11:09 PM

well , im back early .

shud i say i got a silly dear or a loving one ? =x lol*

omg* i mean i never have sumone can worry at bits. i onlie never informed him im home and he can cre8 chaos. =x LOL~ but anyway okies lah i knoe ur caring. sorry so much also .

went PS just now and watch the [ shoe fairy ] lol* well its more like a fairytales. but its nt bad . still okie lahh . onlie if you dun expect too much .
im tired . din slp long ytd . scare late woke up.

im trying to sort out my fri time slot. it looks like i`ve got a mess. if onlie im havin a p2 one and nt tt p1 one. if agency called up and asked me to teach p2 one , im gonna give up this p1 one. i mean this p1 is also diff to communicate. he`s a thai. and doesnt understand chi. how am i supposed to teach ? i din even knoe his name. gwen was nt bad onlie too talkative .

my back aches.

and MR YOUWEI. DUN BE KPO LIEW! =X let me link urs!

dear i enjoyed my day but sorry fer tt so so movie when sumone wanted to watch V = vendetta. lol .
Joanne-
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Sunday, March 19, 2006
3:46 AM

well * another fruitful day fer me.

omg* i`ve spent 150/- fer this day. i mean why shud i said as THIS DAY? went out wif YING. i mean its reallie a last min one. tot of goin out. but din expect its still going on. i mean of going out was mlysia. woke up late. corz ytd 6am then slept.

when orchard. met ard 2 . shop fer the WHOLE far east shud i said ? cut my hair. no much diff but short. and met this kute lill guy. well, perhaps shud be ger ? oh my god. he`s so kute . a hk mayb? or a mlysian ? well* he got my hair cut CUTE =x LOL* kies lah * still ders no much diff but the process was unforgetting. so much tokings in der. and we were the 1st to went in. i mean when der`s nobodie. =p
bought a top ; bottom ; slippers ; accessories ; and one red top fer dearx. lols~

went to meet that pathetic dearx . working till so tired when he`s onlie slept fer 4 hrs ? KE LIAN ahh .. nvm* this mth shopping was done* lol ~ im goin to gif myself a reward every mth . and this shall be the day ...

okies continued ;
went to fantasie , wishing there was things to do . but sorry was full. -.-" waited till 1+ and finalie`s there room. so sorry girl got to let u wait 1 hr + ? this day was like a dream. i mean meeting her was like once in a yr ? hopefullie its the the last tyme. . .

as fer tml , as usual , there`s wrk . at hark . 530 summore! urghh*
dun think waking up fer fantasie tml. sorry dear . i mean since nite im nt cuming back anymore , so mayb afternoon i`ll be spending tyme wif mummie. it had alr been 3 days since i last saw her. sorry dear ...

hopefullie you guys enjoyed urself. i mean ENJOYED. =x love you.


Joanne-
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Saturday, March 18, 2006
5:15 AM

well , wad shud i blogged in fer today ?

IM PRETTY or shud i said im SO much happie. tt i`ve longed enjoyed such happiness. lOl* im self- freeing myself froms stress. and all thx to my onlie one. THXs yea ?

okies. so now shall i called myself as a PROFESSIONAL TUTOR ?=X lol. not bad yea supposingly took up another student but eventualli did not. in case too busy. wondering did they called up lesly ? i`ll try hard to make them passed =x

well ; so tired back ache. tokin to sum good citizen who made me happie fer part of they nite. and THX yea? fer kept on scolding me BAD wrds. TRY it again . and u`ll taste the feeling of CUP-ing of phone from me again. ILU*
Joanne-
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Thursday, March 16, 2006
3:15 PM

im just getting so fed-up ! why does all my guy dun like to studie?! i mean its okie but cant they just wrk hard fer once?!

im not trying to care! but since u had drop out from poly ONCE , cant u just be obedient a bit and go to sch?! can u STOP BEHAVING like a rebellion BOY?! goin to sch wont kill you rite?! URGHH* IM GETTING SO SO FED UP!

WHO SAID GONNA STUDIE HARD AND DUN MAKE ME ANGRY! OH GOD! PLS DUN PACIFY ME WIF UR WRDS AGAIN. ITS JUST LIKE TELLING ME IM GOIN TO WIN 10K OR WADEVER TML! HOW AM I GOIN TO TRUST U? !!?!?!?

guys wif no educations. haha* i think mummie is goin to niam smth again . yayayayayayaya~ wadever! but anyway its not abt Education thingy! its abt whether YOU WANT TO STUDIE A NORT?! im so pissed off! FYNE. im nt goin to tok abt this matter to YOU ANYMORE. studie or nt take it or leave it. till the day i cant stand ur LAZINESS and REBELLIONESS. im goin to said ONCE MORE. im leaving! its up to u. and thankfully. im LEAVING. need not be studies nagger. i`ll rather be my tution tcher and nagged at student of P5 AND NOT A 19 yrs old one! i juSt hate it lah!

IM DAMN PISS OFF NOW!! PLS DUN CALLED ME UP ON WADEVER. BE IT U`RE SICK OR U WANTED TO REPENT ! i wont tok to u till the day you changed ur mind abt studie! if u find job at cre8ion is tireing. QUIT IT. anyway u dun need studies i bet u need tt money .

URGHH*
Joanne-
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Tuesday, March 14, 2006
11:35 PM

ni na me ai ta * wei shen me bu ba ta liu xia ? ...

went to teach tt ger . was so scary . but i`ll try to make her understand .

went to cwp meet dee. walked a while ... get sumone to acc me tok . supposingly wanted to meet dear . but got this not feeling well . all i know was i was nearly knocked out . a prescence of blank. then i sat beside 7-11 b4 i decide to head home.

went to see doc. 3 days MC..

IM NT ALLOWED TO GO OUT TML! mummie and dear is nagging. well im nt tt sick except fer not able to eat .

im missing ah ma. she called up so sorry fer not visiting her . im so unfillial. =[

im thinking of gifing up one job . cre8ion and hark . im beginning to get sick and tired of it . so which one shall it be ? i onlei dun wan dear to be so tough. well* i`ve alr hold onto cre8ion fer almost half a yr ?

its 14th again this mth. okies. i shall onlie say .. ILOVEYOU isnt ? =D
Joanne-
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2:04 AM

today is JUST not my DAY!

i just hate today * i cant seemed why everything has not been in my way . * it just seemed tt ... URGHH* wads happening to me ? im nt having from depression rite ? why am i having such attitude ? im kinda pissed off at small lill things! im getting crazy soon . i dun haf a good 5th mth . im nt happie

im hungry and noone else will care. quarrels as much as YOU can . im on the verge of gifing up . im just recovered . but here i got no much energy .
unknowningly tt you always said tt you care ; but in terms , u dun even know me yet , yet u claimed tt you loved me . ** dont say you love me when you dun even knoe me .

sudden got the ego . the more pple dun wanna bother abt me , the more i shud stand up fer myself. its tyme fer me to get independent ? or is it still tyme fer me to be dependent on him ?

in facts im onlie depending him in sum ways , more cum to studies ; im feeling much like a studie naggy ?! im nagging him truout this sem and tt sem ? had been helping him truout . im nt TRYING to be NOBLE over here. im goin to repeat ONE LAST TYME. im goin to stop all my helpings in you. YOU got to stand up on urself. and get to motivate urself in studying. after this 2 wweks , HOLIDAYS are fer you SLACK truout holidays if you wan. PLS* fer the sake of urself. im holding so much responsibilty now . if you did badly im PARTLY responsible. I BEG YOU. do all ur best and i`ll be der fer you. if you ain`t trying anything , i will be the one GIFING up*

URGHH*
Joanne-
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Sunday, March 12, 2006
3:21 AM

JUE DING AI NI - vivian Hse.

this was the song i used to loved. once again - this tyme was fer YOU.

had a greatful day today . thx to dee and SL . lol* even though the hrs are short but Dee you always acc me de yeaa ?lol iloveu so much. i think i knoe the meaning of friend truout your difficulties. thx ya . shall meet again on wed kies? =p was at box saw BEN and he bcame CAP? -.-" omg* im wondering. if i hold on. mayb WE also will becum ah ? LOL~ so stylo leahh . all used to be server wearing those tupid U. now he so smart yea ? lol.

slacked ard orcard and waited fer dear finish his wrk . LOL~
not bad ah. he strive so so hard and managed to get 2 free movie tickets. lol. corz he` got his target . wahaha* went to PS waited up fer him and went to watch [DORM] not bad . a thai show . moral story . but nt tt boring. lol* i`ve alr watch 4 movies in 6 days tyme. i mean all thanks to dear; your hardwrk BUT also must thx me corz of my effort. yah ? who had been helping u find j0b ? esp TEMP ones. =x so u shud thx me also . heesz~

saw sumBODIE`S EX! and was like so coincidence. was toking abt HER ytd NITE. ! and thus today saw her ! omg* theres smth i wanted to say long ago. i used to had the impression of oh dear , she`s skinny. no nice. =x but today i realised tt tall slim and sweet ger. i think i cant be compared . =x you must be regretting h0r ? but TRY to regret if YOU DARE. i mean im the one regretting. i shud hold on to your hands =x and tell her THANKS you.

and IM NOT OKIE YET! WTH* IM NEAR to fever again. ate panadol just now and was supposingly OKIE. and now dun knoe wad the hell... my nose is terribly stuck . i need to slp! but im going to be short of breathe. my cough is making me digging my throat out. URGHH* IM DYING. wud you be der? if im dying so0n ?

nothing is as strong as the pillar you gave me. ILU.* <# but stop all those GER`S LEGG ! TALL FIGURE ! IF NOT i`ll NS HERE and der! =x


Joanne-
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Saturday, March 11, 2006
1:05 AM

yeaa* as usual . today came back home early again. 10 om jiu finish wrk ler =x lol* was feeling so weak and so no strength . bet was bc0rz 3 days had nt eaten any soild food. other then clubbing tt day sum small fries and ytd few pringles. -.- so tired . tml got to go wrk at cre8ion. dear lah! why must he wrk and then cant help me ? >.

ytd wrk hark also. 2 hrs. 8 went 10 go home. lol* lucky youwei was der to volunteer . if not i will be in hospital now . =x

die ler lah ! anyone can tell me HOW TO DO iwad assignment ? GOT TO HAND IN BY TUE. wad am i supposed to do sia ? -.-" was ASP. i din even manage to attend 1/2 of her lesson. if ask me to depend on DEAR, i might as well die. asked him to do OS project EDITION. till NOW? not a single edit . now still lying over there READ BOOK! wth* still say. you nan tong dang. wtf* DUN LIE MAN. onlie know how to act kute. here am i typing. when u haf finish , PLS DO YOU OS EDITION! farker =x

MIN. read this msg me. i need you to reguide me again. LOL hees* thx so much .

my nose is so stuck! urghh* stop my cough as well! thx god! lols
Joanne-
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Thursday, March 09, 2006
1:32 PM

im kinda sick.* or shud i say was hangover ?

was having this high fever till 39.2º this morning. called dear up* i din knoe wad to do. all i knoe was HOT. so eventuallie ate panadol again b4 goin back to slp. it actuallie took effects . woke up sweating but still feverish. urghh*

was having fever since ytd . but went to black corz terry was goin in NS. of corz eventuallie had sum conflicts wif dear. and you knoe ? guys were like...
watched shaggy wif him . lol* was so cute. but not bad. =] okies. i had been having movies fer the past 3 days . =x wanted to go home at 10. but cum to think of it. had not been out wif them since last yr ? so tried to struggled till alex bought panadol.

they ordered abt 10 jugs ? and der`s burbon coke , vodka sprite , burbon sprite ? yup* alex cud not make it . lol * and they actuallie wanted to go k-box. but they got not enuff money . in da end he sent me home. yah* shud be see-ing i so good , sick still joined you guys rite? lol*

goin wrk later . hopefully im awake enuff to handle this busy day .
Joanne-
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Tuesday, March 07, 2006
11:34 PM

mandy moore - I WANNA BE WITH YOU

sucha old song. but who cares ? its nice.

cruampsss!!!! fcuk !

bigg moma was nice! lols* he`s such a good moma. watched 2 movies continuously. hopefully tml out wont be watching movie. =x today sumbodie treat corz he got pay . lols* went to cwp got my pay eventuallie. yah! just fer tt $42 /- omg* HARK WAS SO DILI DALLY. FARK* had not got my pay yet. if i`ve it by sun. i wud haf the money now. BILLS CAME! 110$ in total. i mean including starhub. urgghh* over budget!

hopefully tml is a fun midnite.

went to OS test today and tt freaking cher had actuallie asked me why am i still in sch ? knn* i got the choice . i mean she dun nid kept on asking me dun nid to go sch alr rite? yah! just take it tt i go fer the sake of myboyfriend. and not studies can ? anyway staying at home alone is bored too~ . im wondering. why shud i still be taking exams whenever her tat asking on me pondering in my minds. pple cheat to strive tru the exams to 2nd yr. whereas im just cheating fer the sake of passing. i mean i dun nid to stay der fer 2 yrs. so why shud i go tru the process ? mummie scaold her wad a tcher she is. she shud be GLAD TT HER LESSON STILL GOT STUDENTS. i mean. SWE ? AND OS ? omg* who the hella interested ? she a tcher who had always been sarcastic fer me. another faker . URGHH* and now im still thinking whether shud i go fer her swe tml ? anyway she take 1 out of the 2.

im goin to temple to beat yah ? u knoe SMALL PPLE! sum creakss behind me blocking my ways!

im trying all ways to stay rite near you . well i mean not east and north. but east and east . im here reallie missing you . hopefully things reallie wont turn out the way we are expecting. i knoe we are scared . but rite now . shudnt we need to haf sum confidents in ourselves ? =D <# youMM

if sumone means to stay in your life , he/she will be sumone who always remember you. and not onlie when you are out of their life or lives this wrld. i mean i reallie HATE tt song SO SO Much. makes me think why i got to knoe this past . cant she just accept wad im having now and be sumone trueful! dear, im not trying to be e-mo pls. lol* so later read ler dun cor and say im so emo. PLS man. at least im nt tt .. yah ? at least i knoe wad am i and wad fool i`ve . kies. i will stop all this. i had been niaming these few days. corz my mind cant help stop thinking. okok. i shall stop EVERYTHING HERE. no more this person in my dic. i mean under the BEST.


Joanne-
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Monday, March 06, 2006
10:35 PM

i have a boy friend .
who stayed rite in my heart .
sumone who is so short.
sumone who alwasy made me cry .
sumone who always scold me.
sumone who v rebellion.
inspite all these,
im so in love with him.
he gifs in to me .
pacify me with his wrds ,
and lufe me wif his heart .
so yet now ,
im here to say . thx you my dear;ILU* <3

watched my girl & i . was not tt bad yeahh. touching*
and i mean yah. tt girl`s acting / show was always good.

saw jess . hong. leo. and ws.
miss`em.

okie. rite now im goin to studie my OS or rather finish up on sum of OS projects. oh dear. i`ve got 6 project + assignment b4 i leave ITC.


Joanne-
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1:53 AM

my head HURTS!

wth* kept on havin migraine today. knn* spoilt my whole day .

so tired .am i lacking of slp ? but ytd i did not have any problems slping except waking up early .

tue got OS test. im trying hard to studie now. ytd done 1/4 of OS project. as fer SWE. im trying hard also . projects is not a problem. its just like tasks i had to finish b4 i leave ITE.

yw asked so many question. bet he`s reallie having problems.

dear.ilu. i mean ... i realised no one else cud gain my trust other then u and my mother. perhaps my bro too. i mean ... friend aint wad you guys are thinking. share woes ? or perhaps i`ve met sum stupid and fake ones. take tt im UNLUCKY then . im telling myself i wont haf a lookback . but even if i did .im putting the past behind me.
Joanne-
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Saturday, March 04, 2006
7:56 PM

okies. im goin to say the same old thing. - im tired =x

trapped in the house in da end corz of draggin tyme , dee decided not to go out. hmm* so watched tbie till now .. going to blog again b4 goin out to help out dear. or rather shud i say its supposed to be my wrk . if i had known im not going out , i wud haf slp till now.

yah* sumone is so fake. i cannot stand. simply trying to be like 2 side? im not going to elaborate. its pointless anyway . you this freaker . if these an tcs acting , i think you wud haf managed to get the 1st prize. tot tt scolding wud made you wake up. but i was wrong .

simply toked wif zf ytd nite . and terry now as they are wrking too boliao liew. =x

i mean if i meant to blog , it doesnt mean im trying to let the whole world knoe wad am i doing everyday .

HAI EERR! SO SIANS. HOLIDAYS ALSO SIANS. MON i will go sch . lols. too boring staying home. anyway monis nort wrking.

i think now im trying to get the idea of quitting cre8ion and get another kind of job alr. lols.`~ it too boring .
Joanne-
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3:28 AM

*YAWNs* x 3

im damn tired leah. i dun knoe why slept 8 hrs liew but still tired . how i wished can SLEEP one whole day. tired!

spent 30+ today . 10 on machine ! and 17 on cab. loL. and eat! hmm* but its ok loh. nvm try to earn hard fer money lohh .=p

oh yah! ive been posted to RP leahh! omg* labtop money . =[ but nvm bcorz ; its onlie behind my house =x from tml ownwards ! yesh! 8am lesson . 7 am wake up! =x but Rp no much friend leahh . ive more friend in the east . and summore dear is at east . =[ im going to get out of ITC . sort of unwillingness but also a change of environment . the wrost thing is NO YDKS AT RP! omg! jialatt nehh! =x

tml gonna go bck fantasy to so cor celebrate the so cor *ah`girl* gooin to NS lol* hopefulliex its fun! ...

an askin mi out also .. on tue . dun knoe free a notx . =x hopefullie free too , nvr see him fer so long .

sianss ah! i want to finish ite 2nd sem de exams . =x

nites *
Joanne-
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Thursday, March 02, 2006
2:42 AM

okies. changed my layoutt ~

DIY layout . lolz as usual * i loved to have sumthing onlie owned by me. lol * got dear a abt the same de layout too~ lol . it may be lamex but so fun l0hh .. used to be a hidden secret . but i dun want it to be fer so long . =x now i believe it open ler lahh horx ?

tired . had been using so much brain juice leahh . and today knew sum of YW`s secret . and ying today actuallie msg me when i dreamt of her . oh yah! speak of dream , had a scary dream ...

yawnn* goin to slp soon. tml got sch
got to ACC SUMONE L0HH! WTH . MY HOLIDAYS STILL MUST GO SCH! COZ OF SUM IDIOT. URGGHH* nites .
Joanne-
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