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Thursday, February 16, 2006 4:37 AM

im back* back from black and so cor mos ?

im reallie not feeling tt well too* everything had been crushing against wad i want. i mean.. i shud not haf blogged it down over here. i knoe it will causes many troubles . but i just want to know wad excactly am i thinking . im STUCK! i dun knoe wad the hella am i troubling. but im just feelling freaking uneasy. i bet non of us enjoyed. and yet he claimed tt i MUST had been enjoying myself. dun you knoe ... everytime i went clubbing i haf worries hanging onto me ? my heart was so heavy whenever you made me felt so guilty. but. u also like tt . and when did i complain ? i dun knoe wad shud do now .. so sorry when u are feel not well and im not by ur side.
URGH* JUST A OUTING AND it cud ...
just feel like crying out LOUD now .../ till i sleep ? im feeling so uneasy ...
im not feeling happy whenever you feel tt i`ve left u out . ! i did nort ask terry out in the 1st place.i did ask him to asked u guys. i mean ... im not EXTRA. here i am NOT thinking too much. but it`s just how im feeling the whole nite. i mean im just not the one where u guys always hang out wif .. the frens u guys hanging out. im not trying to leave u guys having ur conversation happily. i just dun knoe wad you guys toking ... IM FEELIN UNEASY! buying present cud causes us a conflict . are our relation so easy to be broken off by all these reasons ? and tts why i`ve been breaking down * im DISSAPOINTED .
i reallie need sumone. i REALLIE DUN KNOE WAD ELSE SHUD I DO . im not thinkin much, i just dun wan things to happened this way. i mean its wen`s bday . and things actuallie dun turn out to be as happy as i expected. now she`s having bits of problems. i just .... ....

i nid hello kitty to be by my side now. not gogin fer tml IWAD. gonna be debar soon ! no one understand me. i mean... including you. no matter how much im loving you . it doesnt mean you knoe me much.

anyway WEN; HAPPIE 18TH BIRTHDAY!

Joanne-
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