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Sunday, February 26, 2006
3:56 AM

*yawn* tired lehh ! dun knoe why the hella will tired . slept 8 hrs ytd at dear`s house. perhaps diff bed will make me lost slp. wth* coughing made me woke up early in da morning 7am till 8am b4 i left fer my dreams again ... but its the most nice slp ytd [ i mean at his house ]

dun intend to go over his house . but then ytd spent ler ard $70+ at orchard. =x so eventuallie ended up thinking of saving sum CAB fares. and i wont take cab more then 3 tymes fer the next tyme. fer the sake of OUR targets kies? =p omg*! orchard is so so so much having sales and bought so so so many thins . up to 70% sales sia . =x is so shiok. one shirt can cost not up to $10. lols!

working at cre8ion today . hmm* well shud i say im just lucky as u think ? won ur sea battle and is quite slacking today . =x watch FINAL DESTINATION. omg! its GROSS! uueerrkkk ! scenes tingling in my minds!!! the intestines ; the bloody head ; the eyes ; the burnt bodies ; etc ... but still its not as psycho as SAW2. lol .

went to sum other place where we had longed never go ler , since 4 mths ago . i mean when onlie 2 of us. - esplanade . slack der till ard 230 . took NR home. =p well , its sumtimes nice to speak up. im shock to knoe wads on ur mind too`~ but still lucky tt things dun end in tt way ...

hmm* well , sumtyme i regret knowing u so well in da past . it a regrets tt i will never forgif myself . wad a fool i`ve been . so silly and stupid to be der fer you whenever you nid. toy ? or subsitude ? well , i shall not bother you anymore . i mean its more to ... if it does not concern me , i shall`nt be bother and you shall not cum to me kies ? things gonna be divide into lines b/t you and me.

yes! tml finallie SUNDAY. and knoe why ? its my [ tian guo de jia yi ] ! wahahaha* hows the ending gonna be ? i wanna go mlysia! koop taiwan drama series back to watch . oh yah* i`ve not finish my BLEACH! lols*
the main concern is tml wrk 8pm! -.-" might as well ask me dun go wrk rite? lols~

i needa planning again fer march . this mth target i`ve got it. and i manage to save up to wad i plan. as fer this mth would be double. i promise. no matter how hard , fer days in aprils , i`ll save up ! hopefully the tv games wud cum b4 i can get out of ITE. lol* kept on daydream .


Joanne-
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Thursday, February 23, 2006
11:20 AM

im ultimately speechless. not that i dun wan to tok . its bcorz facing u . i dun think i nid to specify who is it .

i mean yahh* wadever actions are so abusive. you say u need job. take up wadever jobs der is. and when der is , u`ll choose. hmm* its okie. actuallie u need not took up another job . hopefully cre8ion can support URSELF. mayb wallets to you is smth too EXTRA in ur lyfe. u might not used to used it . so from now and hereby im telling you ; throw away as u like . i reallie dun think i`ll care . ytd wad i say is hurting i knoe. but i just wan u to knoe and wake up. dun think money is easy to save. its not tt easy. you`ll spent w/o knowing where you spent all the money . thus eventually , its not tt easy to fufil a dream. it may be possible ; but i just want to tell u to face it reality. once again ; telling you this again now here is so ridiculous . i reallie hope i can get out of ITE ASAP. so tt i will not need to see your [ i dun knoe how to say de att ] actuallie its not reallie att i mean. mayb you look aggressive , your tt a lill bit de small actions made me feel like you`re goin to FIGHT or bash up tt particular pple . say u wanted to change. well ; i dun think i need to rush you in dat . whether you knoe wad am i tokin , im gonna say .. i wont quAarrel or wadever wif all this trival matter. i`ll just NOT TOK. i find tt its the best solution . out of ITE ; i wont be so stress up how to make you haf the heart or rather SHOW out you are reallie putting in efforts. now i finallie understand ... understand why u often caught up quarrels .. urghh* i knoe there no much use saying anything here . PLS DONT CALL me and tok to me abt this. i dun knoe how to tok to you or rather face you on wad had happened. this is merely smth i dun knoe how to solve and thus i find tt blogging is also PART of wad i wanted to say . just take it you see nth* perhaps as tyme passed by i`ll get used to your this so [ dun knoe wad de attp ] .

iim ... ...
Joanne-
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1:09 AM

sang SHAN HU HAI in hark again! wth* !!

omg* everytyme they see me and dear ; they will start to SHAN HU HAI SHAN HU HAI. -.-" wth* this tyme wrost l0hs. ji tao still v scaree =x

went fer j0b hunt and then proceed to sum bugis shopping. LOL* beforce proceeding to work .

today is so sians leah! boring day. but enjoy tgt wif YOU l0h.. tml got sch! im going. fer godness. i bet tml is going to be hell and slpy day. lols*

NITES. ilud.
Joanne-
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Wednesday, February 22, 2006
1:57 AM

yeahh* finallie got my friendster changed. hmmm* told jack .

and its like a stone down from my heart. dun knoe why ...
felt so uneasy in class now. its like ... urgh* just UNEASY. but nvm .. he came after me anyway.

had a alrite or rather fun short shopping trip wif min. met up lance also. to pass him the passport size photo he nid . went to cre8ion eat and to the trendy zone . din expect tt it had 6 levels. oh wth* nice ...

AND ! WTH* I`VE SPENT 1/4 OF MY ATM MONEY! FOR 2 CONTACTS ONE M INDUSTRIES TOP AND ACCESSORIES !

took part in sum mediacorp channel 8 thingy . lol* it a game . dun knoe when it start. and all start wif eddie oh wth* nabei no one knows he`s fer real. until he reallie submitted my name. i mean ya. i got the intention fer the sake of money . lol~ and its 20 k fer one game. i mean if we got champ. lol* and precisely tts DAYDREAMING. got psycho tt must be pretty to go on tv. but who the hells care. we are not goin fer sum SUPERSTAR CONTEST NOR MODELLING CONTEST. so why must we hella care whether are we pretty ? lol~ all of us seemed so desperate fer money.. consolation is 5k . well , its better then nth. lets not be greedy then . =p

LOl* URGHH* im day dreaming tru out. if there 20k i wud be able ... ... ...

wahahahaha* tml no sch! holiday fer me! lol.

shoulder achh-ING now. yoKOyoKo. im cuming fer ya again.

DEAR! loveya. tts all.
Joanne-
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Sunday, February 19, 2006
4:15 AM

okies. i`ve reallie got your sickness. -.-" and my throat is damn hurting me. saliva is alr killing me . and its more than enuff that my head is also .

so lets just talk abt fight in fantasie. lols. sitting der wtaching tbie can witness a fight . girl fight ? or guys fighting ?

went cre8ion helped out dear wrking. so tt he wont be tt tough . lol* lucky i was der. able to sense tt if he was alone. it`s gonna be a tiring day fer him , hopefully im more of a help to him den troubling him. =p

tml got to wake up and bai tai sui in da afternoon or perhaps morn ? lols~ i din realised i haven bai leah. =x

changed my dried flowers to the new 3 . the old dried roses had finallie been subsituted by the new ones. the 3 probaly last longer i mean the flower ...

sumone probaly will be KPO-ING reading my blog now. =x or rather so0n . rather then bloggin his own blog. i think im going to delete his blog! waste my tyme. i mean the tyme when everyone kn0w wads happening to us. news will so0n be revealed. lols~ ilu*

you are just sum treasure whereby its rare to find.
but more to the lucky side ,
i found it .
dun worry.
i`ll treasure it .
even though u are sum gems of VIRGOS.
and though i TRUELY hate VIRGOS.
but still this short few mths u`ve shown me enuff care & concern.
THE gems and Treasures in my heart.
*JXEN.


Joanne-
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Saturday, February 18, 2006
3:52 PM

hmmm* watchin tbie now .

not feeling quite well but still got to be strong. got to take care of some one who`s sick . but its okies.

back and head hurts . I CANOT TURN MY HEAD! URGHH* my head is constantly pains . had fever last nite but temp decreased fer now. last nite was like a nite mare to me. pple cored and quarrelled . cannot get to slp . slept damn early . oh wth*

dear god; pls guide him out from troubles. i mean cant u just let him haf some freedom ? and not calling him up 24/7 and questioned him ? trust him pls. he`s not doing any illegal things . i`ll pray hard till the day you let her gain his trust . he`s reallie just an innocent one whereby he onlie wanna spent more tyme wif me . im sorry .

friends are not like this. =p but i dun mind.


Joanne-
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Friday, February 17, 2006
1:02 AM

okies everybody . IM OK. =p

thx so much fer ur concern ... mUacks you guys*

since u got no voice! DUN TOK SO MUCH! SICK PIG!

hmm* faster think tml after work go where lah! pig pig pig .SICK pig!


Joanne-
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Thursday, February 16, 2006
4:37 AM

im back* back from black and so cor mos ?

im reallie not feeling tt well too* everything had been crushing against wad i want. i mean.. i shud not haf blogged it down over here. i knoe it will causes many troubles . but i just want to know wad excactly am i thinking . im STUCK! i dun knoe wad the hella am i troubling. but im just feelling freaking uneasy. i bet non of us enjoyed. and yet he claimed tt i MUST had been enjoying myself. dun you knoe ... everytime i went clubbing i haf worries hanging onto me ? my heart was so heavy whenever you made me felt so guilty. but. u also like tt . and when did i complain ? i dun knoe wad shud do now .. so sorry when u are feel not well and im not by ur side.
URGH* JUST A OUTING AND it cud ...
just feel like crying out LOUD now .../ till i sleep ? im feeling so uneasy ...
im not feeling happy whenever you feel tt i`ve left u out . ! i did nort ask terry out in the 1st place.i did ask him to asked u guys. i mean ... im not EXTRA. here i am NOT thinking too much. but it`s just how im feeling the whole nite. i mean im just not the one where u guys always hang out wif .. the frens u guys hanging out. im not trying to leave u guys having ur conversation happily. i just dun knoe wad you guys toking ... IM FEELIN UNEASY! buying present cud causes us a conflict . are our relation so easy to be broken off by all these reasons ? and tts why i`ve been breaking down * im DISSAPOINTED .
i reallie need sumone. i REALLIE DUN KNOE WAD ELSE SHUD I DO . im not thinkin much, i just dun wan things to happened this way. i mean its wen`s bday . and things actuallie dun turn out to be as happy as i expected. now she`s having bits of problems. i just .... ....

i nid hello kitty to be by my side now. not gogin fer tml IWAD. gonna be debar soon ! no one understand me. i mean... including you. no matter how much im loving you . it doesnt mean you knoe me much.

anyway WEN; HAPPIE 18TH BIRTHDAY!
Joanne-
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Wednesday, February 15, 2006
3:43 AM

OkIES. im back from my valentine day celebration ? LOL

went to wrk at cre8ion and onlie got $24/- for wrking! omg* so lill loh. lill then my normal day leahh! freak* !

yah sumone quarrelled with his ... yah .. so sians*

went fantasie afterall . i`ve made the day so stupid . lols. fer all i wan to say was sorry*

sumone came my house and play TREASURE HUNT?! loLs. i found it! =P

i`ve enjoyed to day so so much . ! Muack. illloveya .
Joanne-
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Monday, February 13, 2006
1:24 AM

okies.* im going to ton up late nites to studie SUM of OS. at least i wont flunk tt badly. . but HOPEFULLIE i can tahan till nite . i mean midnite.

slept ard 5+ hr onlie. wanted to watch tian guo jia yi.

fer all i wanna say now. sorry i had been attping u . lol* but u also ORHBI LAH .u NB OWNED ME LINES. !! better do it i tell u . goin to send you warning lia0. iloveya.
Joanne-
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Sunday, February 12, 2006
2:42 PM

hmm* just finish watching - [ tian guo de jia yi ] - and finallie . next episode , is near about to the ending . and there`s finallie an answer . it was so draggin fer last week epi . omg*

AND I HAD A BAD DREAM LAST NITE. i mean it was just like a dreamt. im freak shocked ! when to gerald`s chalet . sort of regretting not goin black. but evenyuallie lucky i did not went. was bored when girl and botak was not der. but eventuallie they cum ler also like tt lahh. =x sumbodie played like monkeyy . and ended up in changi. oh wtf* PLAY SUMMORE. i`ll make sure ur head dislocte next tyme . better make sure. !
botak came up wif money .. spent lorts ytd. i mean fer nth. other then taking cabss . u ORHBI huh! one more tyme i`ll SLAP U ! reallie . i say wad i mean!

oh yah ! i mean fri we went rush and phunk. lols. i din know clubb wif jadl. was so happening till i cannot rest -.-" din end up in black corz 2 were under18. but it was okie as well. we`ll wait till u guys 18 kies? =D

so long din contact wen and angel . lols. wondering how was their club wif ydk ytd. must be happie and happeneing alr rite. need not say . so long din see u all ler. miss ya!

and result`s out. FAILED again. but hopefully can entered into sum polys. got IT[tamp] as 1st chice and BIT[tamp] 2nd got IT[rp] fer 3rd. i mean 1st few are IT course. i dun knoe why the hell i choose. i mean since i knoe wad is it abt , other then fixing computer and learning java, im alrite. but after 3rd choice the rest are media anf designing thingy ... how i wish i can get in. but i dun hab the basic . its okies . just get on wif wad im doing . im so scare. suddeenlie kindas miss ITE. i mean fwens or wadever. so scare of steppin into a new environment. its not abt social a nort. its about the environment. i wont get to see him everyday den . o.o* lyfe is goin to be insecure fer me .

tml`s going to be 13th feb. val eve. suppose to treat mummie to a rest and had dinner. i cudnt think of any place! how! CQ? seafood ? JAPrest ? where?!?!? haven bank in my cheque . where am i supposed to get money from?! urghhh* !! IM kinda inneed money after 14th again.

why cant money fall from sky ? why cant im born wif a gold spoon in my mouth ? march holi i wanna haf one chalet . =x lols. MONEY MONEY IS NEED! OMG* CAN SUMONE JUST GIVE ME 1K OR SMTH ?


Joanne-
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Friday, February 10, 2006
1:13 AM

URGHH*

im always getting HUNGRY at this tyme! THIS TYME WHEN PPLE IS SLEEPIN SO SOUNDLY! >.<>

TML RESULT is out!

TODAY hark has been sucha busy day fer me! SO so busyy . tt ken gotta helped me out and in the end he cannot go home. ke lians lehh.
*advertisement*
job vancany. - waitress . mlysian/sgn. 17+
wrking in a damn good and relaxing envrionment. starting pay $5/-
OUT-going. ACTIVE. best is KUTE like me. LOL*
wrk in HARK MUSIC CAFE - opp paradiz. just need to fufil one day per week. its FUN! i promise. i mean. u are a music lover. and can stand pple singing. =x

PLS* help me! i need sum back up! im always so in nid of tyme even though i NEED MONEY! but how i wished i can haf a replacement anytyme i wannot enuff pple i must wrk. enuff pple. special occasion i ALSO must wrk . enuff pple. crowded i aLSO must wrk! urghh* they got hired pple maijiam no hired. sunday supposed need to acc AH MA de. 15th of CNY. WRK! then make me cannot acc her eat. she`s so sad. >.sorry*

tml goin BLACK! oh yesh! wif les dee and jess! wahaha ahboy going! dun knoe who will i meet. dear`s friend goin too ~ too bad lohs angel and wen goin on sat wif their ydk ! >.<>

TML WRK CRE8ION leh! sians! gonna be a simple clubbing fer me again. tshirt and SHOES. lols. urgghh* ever since im 18 , i always got no tyme to club! EEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKSS.

ders sumone actuallie cud be like tt. sumone i never met b4. PLS. no more next one PLS. i`ll go MAD! how can pple torlerate HER?! omg* simple diff kinds of world... totallie AILEN!




Joanne-
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Tuesday, February 07, 2006
11:35 PM

CRAMPHS!!! FCUK *

feeling so tired and weak* hungry also cannot eat! eat ler also like tt ... wth*
lADIE sucks !

went fer a so cared tok ? lol* im wondering whether my friend will takeup ? if so i`ll then asked my mum. =x

im pain now. gonna lie on bed and watch bleach and wait fer dear to cor.

not goin sch tml. since ders onlie cs and pie. urghh* sianns~
Joanne-
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12:15 AM

hmm* my throst is so itchy and pain . URGGH* i hate to drink water !

editing SWE or rather doing SWE project now. trying to figure out wad the hell shud i do fer prototype. as fer interviewing and observance . i`ve alr done all i cud. but i dun knoe whether have i go to the correct direction. i just do it just in case. i reallie had no much idea wad am i supposed to do. no one can tell me ...!!

YAH! UR ARE THE EDITOR . =X

i want to watch BLEACH ! but ... i got so many things left undone . urghh*

thurs probably got NWF test. today had a hard day at tt LESSON! so many things to learn . and YOU! HAD MISSED LORTS OF THINGS. i want to slp! =x mon got OS test leh. fri taking o`s result . OS project not yet done.

mayb wed no nid presentation. mdm GAN`s father had passed away . consoldences . * but i reallie dun knoe wad to do fer prototype. i mean im not in da mood to do html! =x

my throat huh. is making me irritated . just dun wanna do anything but to lie on bed and relax.

missing you is smth like the day cannot live w/o the sun.
AND!! WHERES MY LINES?!
Joanne-
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Saturday, February 04, 2006
4:29 PM

urghh* woke up wif a headache ; . and its alr 430 now .

freaking shirt dun knoe where the hell all it went . now i`ve got no BLACK shirt to wrk ! cre8ion shirt at dear der. L&A shirt ytd wash! one more at HARK! oh wad the hell ...

went to help up lance fer being his PT-WAITRESS. lols~ since pS him so many tymes . this tyme decided asked dear take over me at cre8ion then help him fer once... yah .. -LIQUIDKITCHEN. and freaking incidents kept on happening inside. wth* knn! its not my fault lohs. cb! he heard wrongly and i kana . urghh* 1st day of work and i`ve got the customer billed wrongly bcorz of WRONG table. ! but i say 4 mah ! he heard 5 ! then i din know why i never check the orders b4 billing them .-.-" STUPID! the manager is trying to pull us back into tt job . gif him one day of my tyme. i dun even think i got the tyme to sparee ..

after tt more sians. incidents happened one after another . i dun wanna harp much on it.

went DEVIL`S and MU. oh wth! devil`s is a WASTE of money lohh! shud haf headed to MU initiallie .. spent ard $40/- ytd. i think im goin over budget for my targets ... i nidda wrk more at cre8ion. =p

had a hard way to find the way to devil`s . waste lorts of energy .just dun like R&B . lols~ yahh sum weirdos just like it. =x LOL~

went to PS mac after MU. and slack till 6am. and wth one vodka blackcurrent and one burbon can actuallie make me SEH? after eating mac, just feel like everything`s spinning . yah . dun think my level of liquor is so lousy. lOL. must be too tired . slept a while while they were chatting away. i alway cannot get into the topics. yah u knoe.? i mean their bunch of fwen are whoever i dun even know. tts why went to sleep . =x

ohmy dear ! TDAY IS ALR 04/02 LER! SWE PROJECT DEADLINE IS JUST 4 DAYS AWAY AND O LVL RESULT IS JUST 6 DAYS AWAY .

i had many many things left undone. wad shud i start wif ? project 1 ? project 2 ? studie
test ? wrk ?

i just wanted to say .IM SORRY.


Joanne-
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Thursday, February 02, 2006
9:47 AM

*YAWN* SO TIRED!

now blogging here in sch~ I JUST WAN TO SLP!

hmmm* got to wrk later on . -.-" slp slp slp . tml sch so early .

now typing and theres one idiot kept on distrubing me! kfnbcb . LOL*

nabeii! kept on sua-ING Me. cb! im sure goin to HATE him!! urghh* fark .

sians leah. hongbaos money nt enuff ! not enuff fer covering bills! =x lols~ money now enuff~
Joanne-
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Wednesday, February 01, 2006
1:00 AM

im bck from hark .

okies * lets say ... this stupid QUAH YEW WEI.. urgh* kana physcho up to stage by him again! stupid . made me so scared sia . im on stage wif dearx . and everythin turn up to be so funniex ... omg* i can actuallie mixed up the lyrics and got every bodie into a mess . LOLx . omg* eeeekks! make mi xia suayx ...!!!!!!!! i got no face ler nahhh!!!

hmmm* who are those . when u need help and dey will be der ?

i`ll not forget today!! 310106
Joanne-
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