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Thursday, November 24, 2005 5:39 PM

oh my dear* finallie bathe out*

i`ve got so much to blog .BUT im just too exhuasted and shag to think* my mind was just piece of BLANK. * was so tired tt energy fell and even hrs of slp cud not amend back it . was liek solving puzzles nowadays- things are like one after one another .

im just getting so lazyy to get my tots out of my mind. this tyme rnd i`ll just try ... im gonna squeeze my tot ALL out of it .

starting of all tots ; shud i say tt girls are just so fickle minded and indecisive ? shud i phrase it in this way or shud i say girls are diff to understand or rather fake - in short ?

`countering back to u is not wad im doing* to tell smth trufully* felt so much relaxed after u c0nfessed everything and n0t th0se kept to urself. i knew in the 1st place if u` had made up ue mind , things wud end up differently . it may hurt . or u might regret fer wad u never did . i reallie dont knoe fer wad i can say . even if i were to say sorry * i w0nt kn0e fer wad reas0n . i dare to admit - i used to dislike u so much corz of ur mysterious-NESS . i just dun like to guess . or perhaps u`ll say u did not asked me to make dat guess. perhaps u are reallie sumone tt close urself up tightly to urself tt no one can enter other then the 0nes u gave passes . and im one of them tt forever wud not get the pass . but its okies.* u got the authority . =] i din know it wud affect you so much * im feeling ... i dun knoe. its the way my heart telling me . but my brain was telling me tt sorry w0nt do anything . to say truth - i dun knoe wad`s all these abt. tell ya smth . u used to asked me whether are we tgt and claimed tt sumone asked . i probably w0nt kn0w who was it . but i definetly know u asked sumone fer help in guessing abt this thingy. she had questioned me indirectly . im lost* lost at wadever im doing- it not tt trusting a guy is diff* its abt how are you goin to trust him* if u`re willing to place the trust in him* things perhaps wud be diff* im not trying to advice u anything . as i knoe im not in the position . so dun counterSTRIKE me h0r =x im just saying parts tt are in my mind . i dun regret kn0wing u even though ... lastly fer all i can say once again was ...*im sorry .

------ having love doesnt mean i`ve to give up my fwens.

no one actuallie give u up or rather shud i say forget u this girl as our fwen . i reallie nid u to grow up* u used to said that u had matured . girl* by having this kinda thingy is tt u`re still not the one . who say when u`re out wif a couple ; you are the extra ones ?we`ll still NOT forget u . u are AFTER ALL OUR FWEN. past present future . d0nt feel tt u`re l0nely c0rz we are attached . y0u will 0nlie feel l0nely if y0u are giving or telling urself tt u are always the extra one if we were to be out tgt* u are just telling me tt theres no way to had frend and love at the same tyme. and we are showing u tt we can . if u are realli trying to learn ; u`ll nid to take and accept . analyse it and learn from it . things u viewed wud be perhaps diff* u kn0w u made urself seem so CONTRACDICTING* you are lost ? arent u ? u are starting to feel tt u`re left out ?
tt nite i t0t it was reallie a fantastic tok . but i kn0e im wrong. of c0rz i kn0e i shud n0t be in wadever u are going tru . u can say im caring smth tt does not concern me . BUT ... its reallie just a way tt everyone wishes to see tt u`ll change and learn . just take it fer the 0ne last tyme tt things will not ever happened again* stop telling urself tt u are alwasy alone. we`ll always be there fer you * stop doin redundant thingy to make urself miserable. say out * tok out * or rather shout out* rem . - WE`LL BE THERE FER YOU .

you``ve to understand her situatiion* she is wrong and she did the wr0ng thingy . stop dulaning her and perhaps you guys reallie g0t to tok things out . is it possible to stop tolerating each other. no matter how angry u guys are ? sumtyme a quarrel may cured EVERYTHING. btw* i wished u and him happie always ~*

lyfe cud reallie be much simple if ders no problems .

lastly i still nid to say . u wud not be a toy . now and forever . ths fer being there and tolerationg fer wadever freaking attitude i`ve gave . sorry tt my attp SUCKS .and PLS stop SHOUTING At me! =p

Joanne-
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