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Wednesday, November 09, 2005 6:30 PM

im feeling damn PEK CEK AND HAPPIE at the same tyme. wad the hell am i doing ?PMS* ?

URGHH*

i din kn0e tt having to meet up and such a short tok cud brigten my day . they were the ones i`ve always look fer and i treasured. i knew they realie worth to be fwens . lyfe had such a drastic change tt everyone had diff direction of lyfe . and fer me ? i believe i`ve grow from bad to wrost . whereas fer dee* she getting from gong till more gong. les .. i believe still same. but i like this piglet ! LOL~ so kawwaii ~ omg* misunderstanding had CLEAR. talks were made and everyone was luffing hilariously. i reallie love you guys.

having to write a compo out from my hand was a unbelievable thing to do. BUT i did it today esp finished it in da way i dun used to do . i knew it was not a compo of professional. but fer all i knew ; i did try my best this tyme round . hope i can get a c6 or c5 . **

reached home at abt 1230+ and saw tt my ro0m was occupied. FARKING CB* im damn dulan! wad`s him doing?! when will he grow up?! u think you realie able to bcum a YOUNG BOSS at such a young age! can stop worrying MUMMY?! fark* doing stupid thingys! and now using computer and print 100 pages of RUBBISH.wadever it is. i known it as RUBBISH! stop day dreaming can ? perhaps im not a good sista . i dun support him wrking . ESP THIS KINDA OF JOB. i REALIE DUN UNDERSTAND WTF HE`S thinking?! URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH*

SUDDENLY FEEL LIKE SHOUTING OUT EVERYTHING! SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS. AND HERE`S SHE TRYING TO HELP HIM OUT DOING STUPID THINGS!

STUPID CREATURES!

and i promised there these 3 girls im telling myself not to get CLOSE wif anymore. they are more scary then anything else. the wrost and regrets . URGHH* how cum ders such a person living on EARTH ?can they be much more HUMAN? and not AILEN ?

fer all i can say ... im so much sorry! im having a damn pathetic attitude now. sorry tt you had got to take in. sorry sorry i guessed i just nid one day to calm down.realie sorry to spoilt ur mood. and thx fer always der fer me.

im wondering wad can i do to ease it NOW?! i realie dun knoe wad coming over me. but i just felt tt its so stupid?! i hate her. i also hate her fer helping when she`s complaining. i hate her mystery of lyfe. are these realie regrets ?

IM INNEED OF MONEY! I NID TO GET RID OF THIS FARKING PHONE! ITS TERRIBLY SUCKS! KEPT ON HANGING! HOW CUM I SPENT MONEY IN SUCH A SHORT WEEK. !!! HATE MYSELF FER BEING SUCH A BIG SPENDER . AND NOW IM IN NEED OF MONEY FER EVERYTHING!!!! URGHH* IM a totalie fool rite? i promised my next HARD EARN hark`s pay i wud spent it wisely. if not i kill myself!

always tell yourself tt sumhow sum pple just dun worth how they had been treated at. sum are just playing ard wif u wherelse sum just take fer granted. and these kinda pple do SUCKS. once again . i promised they wont exsist in my dictionary .

Joanne-
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