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Sunday, October 30, 2005
5:21 PM

wooo* today HARK so many pple -.-" nt tiring but expected de SUNDAY not many TIPS. =x

hmmm* went NUA-ing today . nth much to do ... but slacking is fun.
yahh... perhaps im lame . =x but it`s like nuaing is alr part of my lyfe. =x

found khaki to mlysia. *finallie* but tt to wait till O`s finish ... and tt will be .... ?

hmmm* fyne~ things gonna end here. =D stop all rubbishs. not gonna gif it a damn. it doesnt even matter. ur existance does not mean much .

tue/wed OFF. hmmm* mayb out to k-STER? or BOX? STER cheaper leah . either day gonna NUA wif mummie. bring her out to chomp chomp ? oR ...

17/11 taking result leah . so scarry.*

* di yi ci de ILU * <3
Joanne-
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8:56 AM

yups* im bck h0me .

had been hanging out till 6am in da morning ; fantasie ; kbox ; wrk ; nua-ing ...

yarr .. it`s true . actuallie it`s quite easy . i shud n0t haf led it till complicated =p

oh yah! did smth so happiex! i`ve br0ke tt nyp de hunt! thx to gerald and tt neh neh leslie . and of c0rx him =p yup. waiting fer him to cum bck and he`s trying t0 donate money to the machinee ; we onlie spend $2/- l0hx =x so happiex .

ytd and today ... cre8ion was damn farking busie . and got $27/- fer these 2 days spent ler $25/- fer today activityy . =[ but its okies . spent it willing l0h =D tt A.M gave us so big de ro0m ji tao not used leah . =x next tyme wud be kster lerr ...

Dee`s bck! iMiss eu . rem asked me out when u n0 wrk kies =D

you are the star shining *
Joanne-
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Thursday, October 27, 2005
5:52 PM

im trying to think tru whether was it my attitude problem or it`s urs ?

im fan xing-ing. i kn0e i`ve made things complicated . or rather you wont / dun gif it a damn . but its not the way ue dont wanna care. it`s the way you TRYING To tell me you are trying to care. you nid not put mi into your lyfe. no one ever nid to put this person into each lyfe everyday or perhaps every single moments. BUT ... sumhow i still find tt ... its the heart tt matters . i`ve trying to tell myself tt i knoe we nid not meet up often but we are still those kind tt we knew we will gonna be the same as before .

am i thinking too much or are we drifting apart. it`s not the problem of attaching. lyfe has been so much diff * i admit . the ironic way tt you are trying to tell me YOU CARE. is simply so sort of entertaining tts making me felt stupid whenever i remind myself of wad we used to said ? are we gonna be wad we had / are in da past or are we supposed to adapt to wad we are now ?

caring too much will sum how led one to silliness. its not thinkin too much its how much u put this person into care . or how impt they are . girl now u understand .. why we used to say ...

" friends need not meet up everyday ; as long as the heart is der - fwens will be 4eva "

but ... sumhow i realised as tyme passed by. its kinda wrong .

"close friends are smth so miracle tt it can lost its way of direction once the track is in a mess "

its not wad u said the moment u stepped in. its the perception u gave . if you had nt wanted fer it ; dun gif it a try anyway . once u were asking me whether there is any attp in yew? there isnt. but theres a problem lying in the way u act . im wrong to say these . but anyway wadever. things not gonna be the 1st tyme we all used to be ...

im jealousing ? or had i realie recieved an stupid attitude from yew ? wad realie do u wants ?

this mayb smth no one knoes wad im blogging. but perhaps its smth i just wanna blog abt. its nothing but its also everything .
Joanne-
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Wednesday, October 26, 2005
6:12 PM

oh my god* theres an irritating fellow here.

bought him home and forget to give him medicine. fark* =x

hmmm* w0ke up at 2pm. nua at h0me till 6+ b4 g0t to mit him . yah today it`s a PURPLE DAY. =D went to DG played ler po0l ; arcarde ; tot of goin HARK. but its ard 10 . so cancel tt tot. then went d0wn to serango0n de ch0mp ch0mp eatt ... omg* stingray ... my satay bee ho0n. =x and 0ne big big de sugar cane. it`s delicious! hees* but IM FAT again =.= stupig. and its gonna be a onlie PER MTH deli.

went to fantasieee AGAIN. was uncle ping bday . got a big bear bear agar agar. but today was kinda sians. i dun kn0e wad the hell g0tten wif me. it`s lyke ... nth to do ; s0rt of b0rement. went 0ut 0ur island ; and pr0blems started. crazy guy . always get dulan and angry fer n0thing. stupid enuff ?

min eventuallie did n0t turn up at fantasiee . m0n g0in to kb0x wif l0ng ; shaun and .. wh0ever . =D and again . 4 - 1 i will be w0rking ... g0nna earn back all the m0ney these few day i`ve spent. if n0rt. .. i will be damn br0ke .

s0me fell0w are ORALLING n0w. so stupid. im listening to s0me STORY TELLING.. yaya. so nice tt gonna make me slp so0n. sians g0tta w0rk tml wif a girl nvr w0rk b4. trying t0 g0 clubbing wib shaun . but alwasy dun hab the chance to wrk wif him. saw him wrking ytd. was liek so long no see him .=D


* the stars will never leave the sky . *
Joanne-
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Tuesday, October 25, 2005
6:33 PM

i`ll never break eur heart`~

im so tired . dun kn0e wad the happening sia. slept so l0ng then still so tired. -.-"

again as usual ; just came back from fantasiee . hmmm* its our island. =x and its was like everytyme we ran out of places to go we`ll ended up in FANTASIE . any one wanna hang out der ? tell me. its a ktv pub. and its kinda nice. =x lols` *ADVERTISMENT* lehh!

okok. back to topic. came back from bugis too ... oh my. say till bugis. i`ve spent most of my money at bugis . be it clothes or accessories or rather food and cab , i`ve spent a total of $150+ >.<> fer the whole day . * just wondering wads happening. had swensen tgt fer da 1st tyme. it was tooo swit. ! i mean the ICECREAM. =x LOL`~*

wen eventuallie did not came to my house and get money. wonder h0ws she`s at mlysia. hope everything is fyne. and wish tt she`s enj0ying her days and seeing her on thurs! hees* they are goin dwn fer HARK interview =D yesh*

i think im rather addicted to yew. everything starts wif you .

OH YAH! i`ve got a paradise from him. its was like his hard earn money are on tt paradise . hees* thx ew. i luvee ... the paradise. =x OPPs*

or rather should i say i love BOTH. lyfe is nothing without yew. im kinda xingfu now.

going to kster or an they cuming to fantasiee ? im gonna BREAK tt NYP de PHOTOHUNT record. stupid HIM! urgghh* but i believe in both of us! the combination of us are inconvincible. =p luve is YOU and ME. i <3>
Joanne-
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Monday, October 24, 2005
4:17 PM

*eating green bean soup.
i`ve grow fat ! =x everytyme this STANDARD timing sum home and EAT! urghh*
but why my mouth kept on asking me to eat . LOL* its tyme on diet.

HARK is s0rt of b0ring t0day or rather EVERYTYME im wrking ... and tts why i`ve tried to psycho lorts of pple cum . stupid ZF PS KING* !! EKKKS! shaun came wif l0ng. lucky they were der fer s0me m0ments. and i`ve been slacking in HARK these few days . its like my h0use.. =x d0nt care much c0rz thinking 0f quitting so0n. s0rrie if i`ve 0ffended any0ne. but im n0t gonna care. esp jane ; hate yew s0 much in da beginning . but n0w.. hmm* =D d0nt quite like AMOS too. tot he`s DAO. but n0w okies to0. .. xin yun`s best . =x why she`s like a children ?! so kute.

acc wen t0 d0ctor. and itss s0o0o l0ng. but its okies. 0nce in a while and happie fer her huh. finallie get her wish ... she`s g0ing KL tml. SIAN* ji tao no one acc clubbing. min also dun wan go =[
wen ;' take care urself okie. best is take care angel too ! lol* dun bullie angel ah . =D i`ll be missing ew guys.
min ; ytd u ask dat question is v v funnie. but ... its a question to no answer fr0m me. =p u ans me mine question ? its an exchange.

after acc to doc ; it was pouring sooo heavy. and thus to0k a cab to PS meeting him. nua ; arcarde a while ; eat .. then jiu 7 ler. =x ji ta0 late fer wrk . and der`s jane nagging. =D

it has been 2 week since 0ur meeting started. h0pe its n0t gonna end .=x haha* its a rec0rd . bleh. im thinking of eu ; wo you ni zhen hao . ni neng rang fan nao bian de miao xiao . <3>
Joanne-
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Sunday, October 23, 2005
4:10 PM

from the bottom of my heart <3>

back fr0m HARK. =D
today ... im HAPPIE. i had a happie wrking day . dun kn0e why ? perhaps its the feeling of wrking . too long no wrk der.

i dun lyke to wrk wif others. i prefer alone. i dun like to wrk wif outsiders other then shaun. i dun wanna wrk wif alvin tml. u`re wrong . you weii is wrking bar. alvin will be outside. sians de leah`
its like... eeek* so sians. h0pe tml will be able t0 happie wrking today ... to0k [ playful angel ] oh my ... peppermint + milk + liquor. eeeks* lols. i`ll never intr0 pple tt drink. unless they are peppermint cravers. =D and stupig AMOS make me lost face! eeks* he made me comment on pple`s singing. wth* all luff ~ di siao siao . ji tao xia suay ..

thinking 0f picking up pop piano. i l0st my interest in classical pian0. lols. why n0t take up this fer 80+ per mth. and learn 1 yr t0 kn0w h0w to play rather than 8 yrs fer classical ? =x im thinking im thinking.

O Lvl ang m0 cuming and here i am nuaing and trying t0 wrk . lols.

nid to use the brush and brush up myself huh . be it money or studie ...

kana bluff t0 go d0wn auntie der NUAING. g0 der als0 dun kn0e fer wad. urghh* but never mind g0t t0 tok to my cute c0usin. she`s damn tehhh* but lurfee t0kin to her felt that she`s realie gr0wn up .

lyfe changes as u enter into my lyfe . its like the rainb0w after the rain . im m-i-s-s-i-n-g eu .


Joanne-
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Saturday, October 22, 2005
6:19 PM

* changed my blogskin .

- pekcek and pek cek . im wrong. seriously wrong.

- am i supposed to tell wad im thinking ?
- am i supposed to feel wad im feeling ?

simply too silly ... urghh* so stupid. am i too crazy in lurve ?
im supposed to kn0ew wer im supposed to stand.

i believe i will* .
im n0t going to tell u too much how/wad im thinking. in case im being set as a SENSITIVE case.
and its sucks .


Joanne-
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Friday, October 21, 2005
7:23 PM

hmmm* just came bck from fantasieee again .

nth better to do huh . after wrk ji tao think of fantasie again.

eat eat eat again . stupid everytyme wif him sure eat. stupid pigg !

nth to do leah.. hmmm* im gonna have good dreamms . =x

blog again tml aft wake upx. =D

*immissingyou - ilh
Joanne-
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Thursday, October 20, 2005
3:55 PM

finallie back to home.

i`ve travelling to fantasie these few days . my 2nd home.

went ECP ytd / or today ? . a no starry nitex.. but im gonna say a wrd to get the star .

b4 ecp was fantasie re opening . so messy inside. but enj0yed myself l0hs. wif all aunties.. lols* esp sweeping floor huh. typicallie wrking. but wrking as in nuaing . =x wrk till half way i can go out nua de. =x so fun. if real wrking can like tt . then good l0hx ...

haii er so l0ng never touch c0m . so sians .. dun kn0w h0w/ wad to bl0g .

went bugis tt day ; bought a damn kute de doggie fer grachel .
; played wif the perfumes ...
; nuaing ard .

tml wrking at cre8ion gonna hab the zii cha smell >.<>

watching the wigg ~ =x finallie .


without knowing wad`s happening ; everything went unexpectly .
this is i promise you ; always be by urside .
the stars will shine fer you ; even if the sun refuse to shine.
my love is all i have to gif ; making you all mine...
Joanne-
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005
8:48 PM

hmmm* i`ve never felt so relac bef0ree . lols*

knoe wad ?

EXAMS FINISH~ lol~

even though its onlie a 1 hr exams. but ... so many careless leah . dun kn0e how to d0. rather felt so stupid >.<>

dyeing hair n0w. lols at least der are s0me colour on my hair lers. =D yups* sum PROFESSIONAL did fer me . and kinda gold liew ?

had a hair cut too .. =D

wad am i going to change next ? hmmm*

O LVL gotta studie a bit even though its ENG. and its so lame.

scare PSing ZF leah .=x this tyme hair not reallie d0ne yet . =X mayb perhaps gonna PS him. but anyway sorrie l0hx.

ILH. soo nicee. lols*

get sumone who can cover u under the rain and not get sum one wif looks. corz eventually looks will changed and pple will still get old l0hs. if u get sumone got looks and lurve wud not eventuallie last .

staying happie is the onlie remedy fer being OLD.


Joanne-
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Monday, October 17, 2005
3:04 PM

stayed at h0me wh0le day ...

studying ?

LOL* shud be bahs ...

shud i said nth get into my mind .. but just purely study nia l0hx. =X

after tml im free~ wad shud i do ?
Joanne-
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Sunday, October 16, 2005
4:39 PM

hahaha.

im finalie back home ... had been enj0ying myself these few days. it was like... going on "fantastiee" ? LOL* pls lah. not ur ktv. =x hees*

Lyfe MUST be a INDEPENDENT one.

Learning is a process ...

thank fer being there when i nid you . =D

-Jxen-
Joanne-
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Friday, October 14, 2005
2:14 PM

hmmm* finalie woke upx .

stayed up the whole day ... sort of ? studying ? slept after he left .

omg* gracier is kute! =x bth* so cute .

i`ve enjoyed myself these few days at fantasyy land.

** pple knew wads fwens are. and i knew tt fwens are sumthing so unpredictable. its realie true tt this min u can realie find sumone who matches ur character and get along well wif you .. but there is also another min whereby they will be the one having 180 degrees changes whereby its scary . corz u dun knoe wad the next min will happened.
**
but there is also fwens whereby u dun get to knew them well until sum occasions and you can ever realise this kinda of fwens are just like the support of your lyfe whereby you live by with their exist .

++ the mystery of the unsolved puzzle . the complication of finishing the game .

you`ve left out the missing piece from the puzzle . ** rem to placed it backk .++

*lyfe seems empty w/o u by my side. realise tt so0ner later this will gonna be a RELYsion. whereby i dun wish it to be. *

LOSING sumthing in my lyfe again will gonna made me feeling hatred to myself fer making decision .-


Joanne-
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Thursday, October 13, 2005
6:04 AM

hmm* just came back from kbox. its a 6 hrs k session -.-" but TM k reallies no good . shud i say system bah .. but anyway im enjoying it .

so tired. and tml gotta go sch tml. so stupid lohs. today waste tyme woke up so early and ended up having breakfast .

got phrase test tml! urgh*
tue got exams ! wrost*
fri to sun got wrk.

after tml lyfe gonna be busy . eeeks* sians lohx..

flash flash flash. better make it tml. if i were asked to redo i will ask cher to cum my house and view da whole thing ...


sumtymes d0nt used ur 0wn eyes to based on everythings. there are s0me things u had n0t seen yet . its nt wad u seen and nt wad u are thinking. dont try to act as if everything is under control of URS. and of corz dun try to presume u knew everything ...

LYFEisntASeasyLIKEwadYOUareSPENDING... *
Joanne-
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Tuesday, October 11, 2005
6:17 PM

things are always nt the one we expected ;;
they dont goes they way we wan ;

we GIF rules to our lyfe ;;
and tts why we often end up in troubles .

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you
I know you know we're had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
I can't promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday
And Baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine

*sorry and take care.



*hope ders no regretting like wad u said ..
Joanne-
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6:40 AM

finallie got to change my blogskin.

im damn so busy these few days.
this layout mayb too simple and easy. corz i just take and edit. no much tyme...

managed to squeeze and get by SRI test. omg* it was a tedius one. sum were copying. sum kana spy sum ; kana caught -.- yup . so corz we were kana so cor SPY ? =x said to be we were mr and mrs smith . lols of corz we wont kana like them in da end kana caught stupid.

went to HARK today ; was late.

was supposed to hand in our DBF tml. but we had nt finish . gonna tried to do three-quarter of it. so tml wont be so rush . im also hoping fer tml . BUT tt project spoilt my mood.

happiex bday shaun . * hope u`ve a happie one . and thx fer ur hello kitty.

oh yahh .. thx LANCE. fer all ur hello kitty products. thanks you soo much . =]

ilurfeand appreciate the hello kitty u guys gave. =D

today im happie. corz i`ve got sooo many thingy and of corz ive manage to get BURSARY. lols. but money came at sala tyme. mummie no wrk just nice this money JUST TO SUPPORT ME sia. -.-" maijiam my bdays. =x

BUT!! sumone stupid PS me. blehs* u own me hello kitty. !!
Joanne-
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Saturday, October 08, 2005
5:08 PM

its gonna be sumthing new and refreshing my lyfe again .

everything gonna be lyke wad i used to be . of corz w/o him .

not gonna elaborate on this.

went to sum ktv ytd and knew sumone else whereby they worked at amk kbox b4 ~ so coincidence to got to know them at such places. bluff them tt im 21. and they actuallie believe . hees* went home at abt 4am .

today was not an busy day but a tired day .
gonna studiex and memorise all the thingy by mon. mon got to finish DBF. if not sure DIE.

i knew blogging everything wud gonna be no much privacy .
cant actuallie wanna blog wad i wanna blog .
gonna stop here anyway , after finish studying gonna go ah ma house slpx and back to wrk in the evening. =D tml is HARK day . =D oh yah . my pay had been increased at cre8tion OMG* but i`ve been spending away this few days. =x


** ytd after i`ve fallen asleep ; an angel appeared in front of me .
she told me that i`ve lost and hurt sumone who lurfes me .

i told her that im so sorry and i knew im selfish .

but she told me ; if its meant to be its meant to be . **
Joanne-
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Thursday, October 06, 2005
5:13 AM

++* im falling from the constellation whereby we used to set side by side .

head is terribly hurting me . feeling so terriblex now .
was it my teeth or hangoverr ?

ytd went MS . it was a bad day fer mi.
be it wen;
be it a guy ?
be it shaun ?

everything was likee ... hmmm* shud i say i cud nt get every pic correct . it was onliex part of my memoryy. lols cant rem much.

all i knew was ... i was toking on f0nex ... advisor told mi lots of things. i cud say nth but ... thxew*
Joanne-
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Tuesday, October 04, 2005
3:16 PM

hmm~ well im back home from nuaing at inter .

had been trying to pia finish pr0ject .. but ... *urgh*

if im t0o much nt suitable fer ya to live wif. i nid u to tell me ...
but im seriously wan u to knoe ; imso sorry.
i dun knoe wad the hell at tyme the way u toked to me im kinda dislike it . u`re simply LIKE my fwen . even though we are rough at tymes. but .. it seem likee we are too fwen .
can we try to live on w/o farking attp. including u.
i`ll try to.
believe me*
stop gifing me faces maijiam u dun chup or try funny wrds or phrase like as if u dun even wanna care .

**being middled . im trying to get my way out . and not getting in .
attymesirealiewishedtogetagoodtalkwifu.
will u listen to me ?


Joanne-
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Sunday, October 02, 2005
4:30 PM

im backk .

back from nuaing wib him. that stupid him. went partybox see mable they all.. hmm`~ seemed lyke they are getting fyne. went back wib dee and one of his ydk fwen . lol. he`s damn look like dragon ; jess`s stead ; max . omg* mixture of the 3 of them. but one thing cannot denied is he damn lok like jess`s bf. and simply look like dragon . i mean his smile and his eyes. omg* simply irresistable. =x LOL~

opp* dee dun kill me if u see this. im gonna snatch wib u. LOL~

oh no. hark is suspecting me and him . wtf* lols~ so stupid. suddenlie asked me whether i knew him b4 i came in. and i bluffed them . today wrk is damn boring . cafe cleared at 930 . slack and played truout wib shaun. ermm. i mean the bar. nt this shaun whereby.. BORING! =x lols~

tml im gonna try indian stunt. wahahah* dare u bullie me tml ~ =p
Joanne-
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Saturday, October 01, 2005
4:33 PM

yups! im back .

im feeling relaxing ang sort of happy =D
nothing else bothers me. had grudge wif bro. but not mother.
sum other problems solved.
angel finallie 18 !
bill settled.

worries fer now ...
dental fees. lols
projects .
my w800i!


im happie staying like that . went fisher ytd fer angel`s celebration. but in da end ps her and wen. c0rz they gave me tt suprised damn too suprised liew.
lols. in da end PS monster too... slack + nua there till 7am ~and i`ve becum the supper and breakfast of mosquitos. my whole hand and legs seems delicious fer the mosquitos. all are their lurve bitees. den its my turn. i`ve a craving fer mac breakfast. it`s been so long i`ve MAC BREAKFAST. lols. went to dear`s house d/s fer mac. and der he saw a windmill trying to commit sucide. which is lame lahs . but he told me he managed to psycho cum down. -.-

wrking at cre8tion every day is SOOO busy. omg* damn tiring. but also sort of relaxing. wad they nid is just fast. nth but fast . everything but fast too . lols~ summore tired 3 hrs onlie. another half hr EAT. another Half nuaing. tyme flies when im in cre8tion but crawl when im wrking alone at hark .

finish wrk early so trying to catch up wif dee. but never expect she`d forgotten to bring phone out. then i`ve made a wasted trip to paradiz. =x

*opps* n0pe lahs. of c0rz went there to look fer tt particular pers0n. esp when i tell tt pers0n im goin home . and i`ve been scolded as " heartless" shud i say i`ve REALIE made a wasted trip down ? =x LOL~

lyfe had been damn LOW fer me fer the past few days. and im gonna repay the happiness i`ve owned.

my hands are soo itchy! *URGH*

ANGEL ~ HOPE U HAD A HAPPIE 18 BDAY ;

at last u cud get ur cig OPENLY and dun nid check ur IC ler. =D

ILURFEUGUYS.


Joanne-
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